3 years, 6 months, and 19 days.

185 weeks and 3 days.

1298 days.

31,152 hours.

1,869,120 minutes.

112,147,200 seconds.

That is how long the world has continued to turn since your soul, your beautiful soul left this earth. That is 1,298 sunrises that your eyes have yet to see. Your ears have become deaf of the sounds of our laughter. Your arms have been deprived of the warmth of our touch. Your heart perfect from the lack of ability to handle our pain.

I miss you.

I thought it would slowly become easier but some days the world flashes back into the moment you were taken away. I don’t see that going away for quite a while.

Our memories slowly becoming more difficult for my imagination to bring to real life. Slowly become just thoughts that pass through my mind occasionally. Your voice, a sound I thought I could never fathom to not hear a day in my life, wandering away as each day the world turns.

Sometimes I feel like I am the only one who remembers you, at times you come off as a figment of my imagination. What we had, the connection it feels so unreal now.

These feelings won’t last forever, I continue to tell myself this daily. As I have for the past 1,298 days.

It might not become better today, tomorrow, or even months from now. That is okay though, I have a reason to be sad. I have a reason to miss your beautiful voice and your warming touch. I had a chance to have such a beautiful, caring woman as my mother and that is the only thing that matters.

A sunshine is nothing without the sun, eventually they shall meet again.

I love you.