Growing up, I never expressed to my mom how much she meant to me. After leaving for college I have come to appreciate every moment we have together and I have realized how strong our relationship is.
An open letter to my Mom,
I never found it super important to spend time with my family until I left home for my freshman year of college. Now, I only see my mom every few weeks for a few days at a time. I have come to recognize how much I admire and love my her. I truly miss being able to see her everyday. Mom, this one is for you.
Thank you for raising me. You have done one hell of a job. I know I was a crazy child with quite the attitude, but I like to think you have turned me into a wonderful young woman. You have always been my idol; someone I look up to and admire. I know I can always count on you for anything, the good and the bad. You have loved me since we met, and have never gone a day without telling me. You have seen me at my best and my worst and have stuck by me through it all. So for that, I say thank you.
I also want to say I love you. I know I never said it much growing up, but I do love you. You are the most important woman in my life and have taught me so much. You have sacrificed so much and have put up with me over the past 18 years. You have forced me to come out of my shell and open up to the world. You have pushed me to focus only on myself and my well-being. You have taught me that, at the end of the day, I am all I have. You have been with me during the most difficult of times like the night in the hospital or in my bedroom when I was having a hard time. You held my hand while I got poked with needles and was a guinea pig being tested on multiple medications. You never left my side through all the frightening moments.
I just want to make you proud. Each day I think of how I can better myself and become the person that I want to be, as well as the person you would like to see me be. You have trusted me and instilled great qualities within me. You saved me from growing up in an unsafe environment and brought me up into a loving home. I want to be someone who makes you proud, someone who you can look at and say, “that is my daughter and I am so proud of her."
Lastly, I want to apologize. We have had some rough moments. My teenage attitude definitely took a toll on our relationship, but in the end it made us stronger. I am sorry for yelling and screaming, for not following your rules, or telling you I hate you. Growing up I would sometimes choose to do anything except spend time with you. You honestly mean so much to me and I want you to know that. You will always be my best friend and looking back I wish I had spent more time with you.
I love you more than you know, you will always be my best friend and someone I admire.
