To my once love,

It has been over a year since the last time I saw you. However, I saw you at the mall the other day. I am not sure if you saw me, though, and that is OK.

You look good. Even though years have passed since we first met, you still look the same. My back was toward you and when I stood up you were on the other side of the store walking with your girlfriend. My heart dropped but not in the my-heart-is-aching kind of way. I turned around instantly not sure if I wanted you to see me. After you walked away, a flood of calmness came over me. It was nice to see you even though we did not talk. It was the first time in forever that I saw you and did not have any feelings of guilt or emptiness.

I had loved you so much that it hurt – it took my breath away. But as time went on we were destructive for each other. We tried to make it work so many times and each time neither one of us wanted to let go. It ended up a mess each and every time. Somehow, we found our way back together too many times to count. Not this time. I was glad you moved on, you found someone new and I hope she makes you happy. You deserve the world and I just couldn’t give that to you.

To say that I don’t think about you would be a lie. We spent years together, and you were a big part of my life for so long. Little things here and there remind me of you. I took away some of your characteristics that I see come out every so often. I reminiscence on all the good times we used to have together. The realization has finally sunk in throughout the years I haven’t seen you that, even though you love someone, love sometimes is not enough.

I wish you the best and I hope you find your inner peace and happiness.

Always,

Me