Hey there,
I know we text and call whenever we can, but I thought a letter would be more fitting here.
First thing’s first, let’s move past the obvious: I miss you. I miss you lots, so much that sometimes I wonder why we put ourselves through so much pain. But that’s kind of a fleeting question. I know the answer. I love you. And that might seem like a stupid teenaged excuse, but there’s more to it than that. I love you so much that I think you’re worth all the trouble of missing you, making time for you, and coming home to see you whenever I can.
I hate that we have to be apart, but also know that you’re with me, even when we’re not physically together. I think about you when I see things that you would like, and when I find a place we should go together. You’d think it would make me sad, but it actually just reminds me that I’m not alone. I make mental notes of the places we should go and the things we should do, and add them to my list of future date ideas. I treasure the little gifts I buy you, and look forward to sending them to you. Everyday is a day to celebrate our relationship, no matter how small the celebration is.
It’s not that I love you more because we have to be apart, but it makes me cherish every moment I do get to spend with you more than ever. Even while I was in the process of making friends, I wasn’t alone, because you were always there for me. I chose you as the constant through all of this, not because I needed help transitioning into college, but because I want to be with you constantly, whether we’re physically together or not. Like I chose my college, my major, and the classes I take, I’ve chosen you. I want you to be a part of the plan, even if right now it separates us.
And yes, it is hard sometimes. Doubts can seep in. It’s not that I doubt you, but I’m always just a little nervous about the power of being there. Other girls have this constant advantage of being there with you- a part of your everyday life- that I simply can’t do. I want to thank you for reassuring me that you feel the same way that I do- that what we have is worth the distance. And while I’m thanking you, I want to also tell you how grateful I am that you accept me as I am. I’m a very independent person, and I love you for accepting that while I may not need anyone else to help me live my life, I still very much want you to be a part of it. College is a time to grow and discover who I am, and I’m so happy that you’re joining me for this experience.
All in all, I love you, and while the distance may suck sometimes, you and I are worth fighting for, and I appreciate you more than I can put into words.
See you soon.
Love,
Jenn
