Dear Old Friend,
The hardest friend to let go of is the one that left without an explanation. There is no closure in the friendship, and you are left wondering what went wrong. When I was left wondering what went wrong in our friendship, I blamed myself. I had no idea what I did to make you stop talking to me, but I tried so hard to fix it. I'm so sorry for whatever I did to make you no longer want to be my friend.
I don't know what went wrong in our friendship. In all honesty I wish we were still friends sometimes, but I know that we will never be friends again. We just weren't the right friends for each other, which is okay. I'm not really mad or even hurt anymore that you stopped wanting to be my friend. I'm still sometimes confused as to where it all went wrong though. The hard part to wrap my head around is that you just stopped talking to me. There was no friendship ending fight, or a drifting apart over time. You purely just stopped talking to me. That's probably why it has taken me so long to get to this point of not being upset anymore.
Even though we were not friends for too many years, I'll never forget all the wonderful memories we shared together. From randomly going to the beach, to talking for hours about anything and everything, I'll cherish each moment that I got to call you my friend. In the short time that we were friends, you taught me a lot about the kind of person I wanted to be, how I wanted friends to treat me, and how to get out of my comfort zone every once in a while. I'll always remember all our inside jokes, the movies and TV shows we watched together, and all the little, insignificant moments.
I want to thank you for being my friend, for letting me cry on your shoulder, for letting me vent about too many things, and for always knowing how to make me smile. Thank you for not only the good times, but the bad as well. Friendship is about being able to be yourself around another person. You always let me be myself, even if that meant me getting mad at you for something that upset me. We were always able to work through the bad times, and that's what friendship is all about. In a true friendship, friends accept each other for not only the good, but the bad as well. Up until the end, we always accepted each other for exactly who we were, imperfect.
The one thing I'll never understand though is why you never said goodbye. One day you just stopped responding to my texts, stopped making plans with me to hang out, and just stopped being my friend. After a month or two of blaming myself and constantly feeling guilty for somehow upsetting you, I gave up. I realized that I didn't do anything wrong. All I wish is that you said goodbye. It really hurt that you left without saying goodbye and I deserved more than that. All I ever tried to do was be a good friend to you, but in the end you didn't do the same for me.
I want to thank you for not saying goodbye though. You taught me the important lesson that sometimes there is no reason for a friend to leave, they just do. It took me some time to accept this, but it's a lesson that I'll never forget. I don't blame you for our friendship ending. I know that I'm not perfect and I did something to lead to you deciding a friendship with me just wasn't worth it anymore. I want to apologize for whatever I did. I still have no idea what it was, but I hope I never do it to someone else. I hope you are happy and have an amazing life. I only wish the best for you, and will never forget our friendship. You truly were a good friend and a part of me will always miss you.
Goodbye, old friend.
Love,
Me
