Dear Best Friend,
What happened to us? We used to be, as people would say, inseparable. We had crazy fights and we had even crazier laughs. I still get people asking if I have talked to you or if I have seen you or what you have been up to (especially the nail salon). I know that as we get older we get jobs and we get more responsibilities thrown our way, but we always told each other that wasn’t going to change the friendship that we had. I know that a big part of it was the boys that we allowed entrance to our lives and they are taking up a lot of our time, but I haven’t seen you, just you, in over a year now. I miss you.
In the beginning of us becoming distant, it was my fault. I admit. I always chose the boy over you. But at the same time, I tried to ask you to hang out, every once in awhile. Although sometimes it was with him, sometimes it was without. We always fought over that. Now look, it has turned the other way and I know how you felt. Why? Why is this happening to us?
I don’t mean to sound so selfish and hypocritical.
Now, I understand that we both work, but I also understand that there are times when we both have time off. I reach out to you. I know that you may not need me in your life, but for once, I sort of need you in mine. You were the only one that I could go to with problems and stress, but guess what, now, I have no one.
You always make plans with him, but when I want to make plans, you always say you are busy. I am just wanting to reach out to you and tell you all the stories that have happened to me recently, the good and the bad. You were my best friend, my sister, and my other half. Now he is your best friend, your boyfriend, and your other half. I am not trying to come across as jealous, because I am not.
I get that our relationships with boys are important, but shouldn’t other relationships with our friends be given the same consideration? Like I said earlier, when we were younger, I did the same thing and put my boyfriend before anything else. Now I understand how wrong I was. I understand that I need to make time for myself and my relationships with my friends.
I just miss my best friend.
I remember when we used to plan what we were going to do when we turned 21. You were going to turn in September and you were going to wait until I turned in February to really get your party on. We were going to go out and have the times of our lives. Or remember the time you said that you were going to buy me whatever I wanted from the liquor store because you were allowed in there. We were going to mix drinks and enjoy our time together. Now September is right around the corner and I feel like you aren’t going even think about me. It’s not about the alcohol though, it’s about you and me.
21 won’t feel the same without you.
Is this what growing up really feels like? I guess I have gotten used to losing friends though... it must be a requirement to getting older. I just hope losing you isn’t official. I hope it is a temporary change.
Wishing you the best,
M
