One day, we were grabbing coffee and watching movies. We were playing pool, doing homework, and laughing. But the very next day you didn’t even want to talk to me. These words haven't stopped entering my mind, “we’re just friends.”

I just want you to know something: I know that now, if you can even consider these conversations a friendship. I care about you way too much, so I’m sorry for that. I apologize that I see so much potential in you and want you to excel in every single extraordinary quality. You are such an incredible individual and I know you have the ability to make so many people proud. You mean to me more than you’ll ever know. But, I guess that doesn’t matter so much to you. I’m sorry to put you in a position where you have to decide whether you care enough or not. You aren’t ready; that’s okay. I’m not mad at you, and I don’t hate you. I’m upset with the entirety of what this situation has become. I’m mad at myself for allowing myself to feel so deeply.

You are so special. I see so many qualities in you that will excel to incredible things, if only you realized. You’re the best friend I could ask for, but right now it doesn’t even seem like a friendship. I know I care too much, and I now know that I’m not what you want. When I say I care, you second my statement. But I know now that mutual agreement isn’t the reality of the case anymore. I’m not going to force myself into a position that should come naturally to both of us. Maybe you aren’t ready to care so deeply and give someone your heart.

I care for you so much, and you deserve happiness in its fullness in what it means to you. If that’s not with me – that’s fine, I understand. You have a bright mind, a kind heart, and a strong will. Use them all wisely and do the things you’re capable of. I understand your opinions, and I respect you. I can’t keep putting my heart on the line and getting crushed in the end. My strength is growing weak every day my anxiety of the situation grows. Everyone needs someone to care, and it’s just not mutual in our case anymore. I’m not all that I’m made out to be, but I’m doing my best to keep the strength.

But here’s the thing. I want you to enjoy yourself, because I’m now taking my own advice. I care for you so much, but I can’t sit on hold. Know that I’m there for you in everything you do. When you realize what you’re capable of you’ll see how many lives you impact in every step you take, so remember that always. Every corner you turn, you’re making a difference, even if you don’t realize it. You’re such a great person. Never doubt yourself and always realize the greatness you hold, no matter what choices you make and what path you take.

I’m upset with the situation, and I hate that I fell into caring so deeply when I promised I wouldn’t. There’s nothing else I can do now. You’re a great person, and I love you. Find what you need and fill your life with it. You should get at what you want with clear eyes and a full heart.

Remember your greatness and fill your life with your happy things, friend.