To Those Who Find Me Annoying,
I get it. I can be loud and obnoxious. I'm sarcastic. Sometimes I'm bossy. I've got a mouth that can put a truck driver to shame. And other times, I am a downright b*@$#. Unfortunately, these flaws get me into trouble frequently.
You find me irritating? Please, enlighten me with something I haven't heard. I mean, seriously -- if you want to insult me, come up with something more original; being told that I am obnoxious or annoying is nothing new to me. I dealt with it throughout grade school, and I still deal with it now; whether people tell me to my face or talk about me behind my back.
These kinds of insults used to bother me. Knowing that people like you thought I was annoying and didn't want to be around me because of my rambunctious personality type used to make me anxious. I became so anxious that I would try to change my personality to a more quiet and reserved nature. Naturally, I failed. As I've mentioned before in previous articles and letters, my anxiety also sent me into counseling for a while.
But over time, I realized a few things. I have some news for you people who find me annoying:
I can't change. I was born this way. Sarcasm and being rowdy is embedded into my natural personality. I guess you just don't know how to handle it.
I won't change. I certainly won't change just so I can meet your standards of what you deem acceptable behavior. If you don't like how I act, there's the door. I'll close it for you on the way out. Hell, I'll even pack your bags for you.
I have friends who love me for me. True friends don't try to change each other, and I can certainly say that about my friend group -- they accept me for me, flaws and all. At the end of the day, they're the ones that have my back no matter what -- I don't need negative people like you to bring me down.
I don't really care what you think about me. I'm way too busy excelling in school, my job, extracurricular activies and my social life to be worrying what you think about me.
Basically what I am trying to say is that, over time, I slowly learned to embrace my personality type rather than try to suppress it around people like you. There's nothing that I have to prove to you because, most likely, I won't be seeing you anymore after college. My friends love me and I have plenty of confidence in myself.
In conclusion, to quote that Justin Bieber song, "You should go and love yourself." (I think you and I both know what I mean by that).
Sincerely,
Caitlin
