Let me start this off by saying how I really didn't understand you at first. You hear about people who don't eat or throw up after eating and you think, "Well why on earth would they choose to do that to themselves? Don't they like food?". You look at a skinny girl and snicker to your friends and say, "Wow, she sure looks anorexic".
You are so much more than that though.
You are a destroyer of young people everywhere. You creep into someone's mind and distort their body image. You make them see themselves as a monster. Someone that would be perfect if they lost just a little bit more here or there. You make them think that over exercising and eating just a few things a day is enough to make them be beautiful. You make someone hate the image that looks back at them in the mirror. You make them think that protruding hip bones and constantly being cold and exhausted is a sign of a job well done.
You are selfish. You make sure that YOU are the only thing that consumes their thoughts. You make sure that from the moment they wake up in the morning until the moment the fall asleep they are thinking about how many calories are going in and coming out of their bodies in the hopes that tomorrow the number on the scale will be lower. They are not allowed to think about anything else, even for a second, because if they do you will swoop in and make sure to turn them around to thinking about you again. You make them want to end it all. You make them wish that they were gone instead of living the life they were given. You give them such terrible anxiety that they can't think or even breathe comfortably.
You destroy more than just the person whose thoughts you consume. You destroy the people around them as well. You can take a family and tear it to pieces. You can take a friendship and rip it to shreds. You lash out for no reason. You steal any shred of happiness that they may have just for your own selfish gain.
To be completely blunt, you are an asshole. You make the person that is afflicted with you seem like the angry one, but really, it's just you. YOU are angry. YOU are selfish. YOU are destroying innocent lives. It's all YOU, ED and I'm going to have to ask that you get off your high horse and move on. You are nothing. You hear me? NOTHING.
I will no longer allow you to enter lives and destroy them. I will no longer allow you to let people feel like they are not worthy. You are the one that isn't worth anything. You, not them. Remember that.
