Meeting you was an accident at first, but I realize now that it was in my destiny. The first day we talked, you came and sat next to me in Spanish class. I gave you answers, and we became friends. A couple weeks went by and our feelings became obvious. On October 5, 2013, we went to the movies, and we had our first kiss. For the rest of the weekend, you wanted so bad to talk to me but wanted to be in person. That Monday morning at school, October 7, 2013, in the library, you asked me to be yours. I replied, "If you want me to be." That was the best day of my life, and soon, we became inseparable. We were the "it" couple. We were more than the others walking around school playing lovey-dovey. We weren't playing; we were in love.
You obtain the friendship of a lifetime, they're more than just your boy/girl-friend.
Jacob and I became best friends. We did everything together, we were never really seen apart. We walked to all our classes together, we went to the movies together, we went to school events together. We did everything. I'm blessed to have had the best friend a girl could ask for in that one boy. There's no feeling like being able to know you have someone to talk to at the end of every day. There's no better feeling than always knowing you have someone on your side all the time. You become reliant on this person more than anyone else in your life. They're your best friend, and they become your soul-mate.
You make memories that you wouldn't be able to forget if you tried.
When you spend so much time with someone, you're bound to make some amazing memories. From going to my first UK game with Jacob, to going to the water park or the fair, we were so happy; it was a constant adventure with him. Shoot, we could just go to the park, and it would be the most fun we had in weeks. Every time we were together, it was my new favorite date. Little things become the biggest things in your life. You can't go anywhere without them and not wish they were there. Everything you do, you want them to be involved.
Their family becomes your extended family.
There's no scarier feeling than meeting their parents for the first time. Your stomach is in knots, and you wear clothes that their sisters wear, just to make sure they don't think you dress weird. You sit so straight and either talk too much or not enough. However, this phase does pass. Soon they become like your own mom or dad, or sister or brother. You're able to walk up to them and hug them hello and tell them you love them and you'll see them later just like they're your family. Jacob's sisters have become like older sisters to me, and his parents have become like another set of my own. You realize how blessed you are to have family that isn't even yours but treats you like you are. My family welcomed Jacob with open arms; he would hug my mom like she was his best friend, could rely on her like his own. He was a great brother to my sister and meant a lot to her. Jacob brought me into his family, and it opened up my eyes so much. I thank God for Jacob welcoming me into his family and for his family taking me in and bringing me closer to Christ.
Your futures become one.
You make so many amazing plans for your future. You plan your wedding and how your careers can entwine so you both will be happy. You idealize how amazing your first crappy apartment will be and look forward to some run down shack together. You change your schedules and plan to move around wherever it would fit for you both best. You come up with all the perfect ideas for your wedding and where it would be and the names for your kids. You plan Wednesday Night Cuddles or date nights and can't wait to be able to come home and say, "Honey, I'm home" and kiss them hello. All their dreams become your dreams and you're only happy when you know they would be. You don't ever think it would be taken from you. You don't ever think something else would interfere with all your dreams.
You never imagine being without them.
When you're only 17 and 19 years old, the thought that something could happen and one of you could be taken doesn't ever really cross your mind. You live for the moment and take advantage of the time you have. You learn so much from them. You learn what true love is. You learn that whatever you thought love was before, was wrong. You learn all their flaws and all their likes and dislikes. They become so close to you that you know them like the back of their hand. There's nothing like going to subway and ordering their sandwich for them and getting everything they wanted right; or going to McDonald's, or any place for that matter and knowing what they want exactly.
When they're gone, everything you do reminds you of them.
There is not a single store or restaurant or movie you can watch that won't make you think of them. Every where you drive to, everything you see you'll remember riding with them there. Everything you eat, you remember whether they liked it or not. Every song you here, you associate the meaning to what you're going through. There isn't anything you do that won't flash an image of their face in your mind.
Jacob was taken home November 24, 2015, and now I have no wedding to look forward to, or run down shack with him, nor will I ever be able to have a family with him. However, I do have our memories, and they will last me a life time. And for a lifetime, I will cherish them. Every day is the hardest day of my life without you in it.
I love you always, Jacob Dale.
Love, your baby girl,
Nichole Sharp (a.k.a. Angel Eyes)
