Lately I have felt completely drained.
It is a weird feeling to describe, but the first and really only word that comes to mind is drained. Drained mentally, physically, and emotionally.
The cause for my mental drain is obvious.
School. This seemingly never-ending schedule that slaps you every time you try and get ahead. Okay that might be a tiny bit dramatic, but it is honestly how it feels! I stay up all hours of the night studying and trying to get caught up in my classes, but it is a constant cycle of studying and assignments due. This vicious cycle pulls you down after a while. I thought spring break would help; however, I do not think I have ever been more wrong about something in my life. I felt like I barely made it to spring break this year and the comeback was even harder. I felt guilty on vacation because I knew I had assignments due and exams that first week back. I never had the chance to fully relax because all of my school work was constantly in the back of my mind.
The physical drain is more tolerable.
Being in a sorority, most of my Thursday nights are occupied by socials. Which don’t get me wrong I love mingling with different fraternities and meeting new people but being involved socially takes a toll on you after a while. Trying to keep up with all my new friendships and old ones at the same time is hard. (I know first world problems… lol) But seriously, it is hard to make sure my friends back home still feel the love.
The emotional drain hits me almost as hard as mental.
Dating someone back home is like having my heart ripped out every time I head back to Athens. Okay I’m sorry for being dramatic yet again. But really, it is hard. Spending all that time together and then having to go without seeing him stinks. But that isn’t the main reason I feel emotionally drained. I was raised in church, went almost every Sunday. And now that I am at school I have noticed holes in my relationship with God. I don’t go to church half as much as I should and I know I need to change. I still have my relationship with him to fall back on when times get tough, but it just is not as strong as it once was and that is upsetting to me.
Feeling constantly drained makes the days drag by and weeks quickly slip away. Luckily, I have less than 4 weeks left and then I can use the Summer as a time to bounce back.
