There is something that I really struggle with. It’s something I have struggled with pretty much my whole life. I am always quick to change who I am in order to impress other people. To the point where I am not even sure who I truly am anymore, and that is something that has really been weighing on me recently.
Who am I? Who would I be if I never let anyone else influence my likes or interests?
Obviously we are all affected by the people we are surrounded by, and that is not necessarily a bad thing. We are influenced by the community that we grow up in and the different communities that we are a part of as we live our lives. However, it is not okay to change your moral views or even your likes and dislikes in the hopes that it will make someone like you.
I will never forget the day that I changed my favorite color in order to have the same favorite color as a few of my friends. I know this seems like a dumb example but this has really stuck with me. This didn’t happen when I was a little kid. This was only a couple of years ago.
Even when I was 19 I still felt the need to change something as miniscule as my favorite color in order to feel accepted. Thinking back now, I’m sure my friends couldn’t have cared less if I had the same favorite color as them, but to me it seemed like an opportunity to give them a reason to like me.
Looking back I’m actually embarrassed that I cared that much of what they thought of me. So much so, that I felt the need to lie about my favorite color.
I’m trying really hard to stop being the person that changes so much. I’m slowly figuring out what my real likes and dislikes are and who I want to be. It has been a struggle for me since I spent so long trying to conform to the likes and dislikes of the people around me. I did this with my friends and my family too.
It’s not easy to stick out from the group so it makes it hard to be honest about who you are. It’s human nature to want to fit in but we are all different. We are all as unique as a fingerprint so why would do we insist on taking away our unique qualities for other people?
I hope everyone finds the courage to be who they truly are. Society has all of these rules for us. But we have to learn to be brave enough to not conform to what society thinks is right or wrong.
Trust me when I say there are so many people in this world you WILL find people who will accept you for who you are. So let all of your unique qualities shine and do what makes you happy. Because happiness is one of the most important things in life.
And just so everyone knows, purple is my favorite color.
