August of 2015 was a very busy time for me. Getting ready to leave for college, celebrating my 18th birthday, and a graduation party all took place in about a 2 week time span. However, none of these events impacted me as much as August 12. On August 12, I lost my grandma. The days before weren't much easier because unfortunately we all knew it was going to occur sooner rather than later. So, I spent a lot of time in the hospital. Her loss was especially hard because it was the first really big loss I have had to face. I have been around for others, but none were as hard as this one. There are so many things I wish I had a chance to do or say.

If I had one more day with you, I would have spent it watching the "Days of Our Lives" with you, because it was your favorite. We wouldn't talk much (except maybe commercials) because you might miss something important. I would talk to you about your favorite books, and maybe read a few for myself. I would have spent it learning all of your recipes, because there are days I could really use your cooking. There are of course some things I have learned, but I wish I had the chance to cook with you.

I wish I had one more Christmas, one more chance to help you set up the scenery and make a ridiculous amount of pierogies. It's because of you I love Christmas so much, and it's so hard without you during the holidays. I wish I had one more chance to spend all my free time at your house listening to Christmas music and doing some kind of cooking, from pineapple turnovers to nut roll and everything in between.

If I had one more day with you, I would spend it telling you how much I loved you. I didn't say it enough. I wish I had the chance for one more hug, one more "I love you," and one last box of taffy.

I never realized how little time I had left with you until I had no more time. A year later, I still don't have the words to describe how I feel. Of course it has gotten easier with time, but some days hit me like a punch in the stomach. I wish I had just one more day, so I could say I love you.