Sometime last year, I remember going on this retreat with a close friend of mine. We did all kinds of activities that consisted of bonding activities that made you open up about yourself. We decided to go outside to just relax in a calming area. As we sat on the pier of the lake, we were saying all of our wonders of the world and she asked me, “Why do I always feel worthless?”
I was stunned because this was the type of girl who was naturally beautiful, seemed to have gotten everything she wanted or needed in life, had a great family background, was about to get engaged with her long time boyfriend, but yet here she was feeling broken as ever. The only thing I could ask was “Why?”
She told me the story of how a man had put her down, said she was “just a woman." She told me her story of being raped and how she was quiet for so long. All she could say was how worthless she felt to be so tossed to the side. This beautiful girl had her heart torn apart.
All I could think about is how it was not her fault for thinking like that. The world has already begun to label people as worthless. Our world sees a homeless man on the street and would rather yell for him to find a job than help him get the actual job. Who would want to be in such a place that is torn? You don’t need people to tell you, you are important. You are strong and are capable of doing almost anything. Work on loving yourself and explore your own heart. There will never be another you in this world. The world may say one thing but it doesn’t not define who you truly are and what you can do.
Now I know everyone goes through this stage of where they lose confidence in all the stress life can bring. But with that stress comes doubt. We may doubt our own capabilities, but never has anyone ever been worthless.
Our world makes us seem like a number in a book full of codes. It can make us seem like a figure behind a foggy mirror, hard to see. But something I’ve realized in this crazy world is you never were worthless but rather you are PRICELESS.
