Right and wrong

and wrong and right and trying

and changing

trying to heal, not fight

I say one thing and do another

while knowing I should have not done one

and result in the other

Changing and trying

and trying is hard

to stick to your values

your ethics

your consciousness barred

stagnant and evolving

and trying and true

so much to say and so much to do

there is peace in this space

between and within

you know what's right in your heart

and feel it from within

your spirit doesn't lie

and it can set you free

but how can I get there

and bring it out from within me?

This poem is all about the reclamation of my mistakes and my ownership of all of it. No one is perfect. No one completely knows right from wrong, to stay or go, to talk or stay silent. They mess up, learn from it, and take the world with fresh eyes, and open heart, and is more empathetic and understanding to themselves.

I do a lot of preaching without practicing at times, and although it's difficult, I try my best to do everything I have value for, stand for, believe in, while giving myself room to grow more. Whether it's taking my own advice or others, taking a pill that's hard to swallow, or truly cutting things out of my life that aren't good for me, it's so important to notice inconsistencies within yourself and change them.

I feel like I never come across as self-conscious or insecure of myself, but when it comes to many things I am hazardous and cautious- when I seem to be telling myself I am confident about everything when deep down I do have my doubts. But this is learning. This is loving.

However you interpret this poem, I hope it helps you treat yourself kinder, and helps you to grow and reevaluate all aspects of yourself- good and bad.