I try to be patient
But the pain still cuts deep
Try to ignore feeling like this
Try to pretend like it doesn't still hurt me
It seems like it should be long enough
But healing has no clock
And even after all these months
I miss you much more than I ought
Somedays I feel like I'm better
And other days the rain comes pouring down
I've never even met her
But just seeing her with you makes me feel like I'm about to drown
I climb and I climb
Try to find a way out
Try to swallow my pride
But instead pain flows inside of me and drowns me out
I want you to be happy
But I know that you arent
I know that you're drowning too, in secrecy
Pretending for her and everyone else that you have a whole heart
But instead we both have hearts with holes
Wounds where the pain enters from time to time
Where the water from our tears gather in pools
And cause us to fall apart from time to time
I know one day we'll both learn how to swim
And then one day the flood waters will dry out
And there will be no trace of memory from the love of back then
We'll no longer remember why we wanted to cry, yell, scream and shout
One day we wont feel like we're about to drown
But until then, we'll keep our heads above water
Because we're not the kind to give up without a fight
we're not the kind to get pulled under
Originally posted on my blog, Rithimus Poeta @rithimuspoeta.blogspot.com
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