We all want it but not all of us get it. We all want it because we think that it will bring us peace and we will be able to move on. Sometimes they aren't even worth it, though. Sometimes even it will bring you more down than to peace. CLOSURE. We all want it but not everyone gets it.

I have waited a long time. I have bit my tongue on too many occasions. I have stayed back and watched you act like the fool that you are. I have been the pushover with the big heart that loves and never gives up, for too damn long. Now it's your turn to listen up.

Yeah, you. The one that hurt me with your words over and over. The one that used me to buy you things that you were too cheap to buy yourself. The one that told me to trust you, but was cheating on me with a "friend." The one that told me "we are not together" to justify all your ruthless asshole actions, but yelled at me when I would even have a conversation with someone else with a penis.

The one that started it all, the reason I grew up always thinking I wasn't worth it and hating myself because you always made sure with your nasty words that I never felt good enough to be your kid.

Yeah, you. The one that stabbed me in the heart so many fucking times I almost gave up on myself; I almost took my own life. You know who you are, all of you.

1. You are a poor disgrace of a man.

I do not understand how you can treat any woman in your life that loves you with everything she has and would give her own life for you; so poorly and then turn around and call yourself a "man." That's not a man. It's a poor excuse for a boy maybe, but not a man. A man knows better than to treat women in their life as much much more than scum on their shoe.

2. You are a hypocrite.

You yell at me about one thing but you can turn around and do it and I cannot get mad. Where the fuck is the actual logic in that? Tell me. Oh wait, there isn't any.

3. You are the most selfish person I have ever met.

You blame her because you failed and you won't admit it to your own tiny little brain. You can't possibly have been wrong or done something for her to leave, so you have to beat her at life. Propose to a new girlfriend before she can see the nasty side of you, and show everyone else, "you have won" in the game of life.

You make her do your fatherly duties because its easier than taking your own responsibilities for your own two kids. You make her drive you and pick you up when you are drunk out at parties and she knows you have been with other girls and drinking. But, because you know she loves you and wants you safe - you call her. She picks you up, you got what you wanted at the cost of her pain, for the 30th time this month.

4 You are manipulative.

You make her bring you food and do things for you as a way to earn your sexual attention and attraction. You make her your bitch so you can have all power and make her know she is nothing without you. You make sure she knows she is lucky to have you by constantly telling her how easy it is for you to get other girls. You hang things a parent is supposed to do - over her head in order to shut her up. You apologize and cry. You get her trust back and you fail her again, by yelling nasty things that are unforgivable.

5. Lies is all you speak.

'I'm sorry.'
'I love you.'
'You are my first born, I didn't mean to hurt you.'
'Of course, I care about you.'
'Why would I cheat on you with someone else?'
'You can trust me, I am not the same as them.'

Has any of it ever been true? No.

You managed to get my heart and wrap it around your lies, every. single. time.

6. You are a narcissist.

You think so highly of yourself. You look in the mirror and check yourself out. You do things like take a vacation and invite no one but yourself. You don't call about your mother dying because it's all about you and enjoying your vacation. You buy yourself a new toy even though you know I don't agree.

But it's all about you, so I am irrelevant. It's always about you. You make decisions only for yourself and consider no one else. You think about you. You are incapable of thinking about anyone but you. You. You. You.

I searched for closure. I really did. Hoped that it would come, we could have a sit-down and talk it out, I could say goodbye for real and walk away forever. But after a while, you just became too nasty in the way that you were disappearing the man I used to know and loved.

You slowly became everything that you said that you never would be and never wanted to become. You were becoming your dad. You were becoming your friends. You were becoming the guy they all warned me about. You became someone I did not know nor wanted to know.

Why would I need closure or how could I get closure from someone I don't know? I want closure from the guy I used to love and know, the one that tucked me into bed and told me 'sweet dreams happy dreams pleasant dreams.'

I want closure from the guy I fell for overnight and who was the first to know every dark thing about me. I don't know who you guys are now. I don't know you. How can I get closure from that? I cannot. We cannot. Its hard, it's going to be a struggle and a battle but we can do it without the closure.

Cut them out. Block them. De-friend them. Delete photos and store them away in a place you won't see them. As much as it hurts, erase them from ever being in your life. Cut ties and any possibility of seeing them. They are toxic, and they can and will destroy you if they get the chance. Narcissists are something to stay clear of. Something to be warned for certainty of breaking your heart in the future. You don't get closure from them,you don't get to say your piece and make them listen and hear you because they aren't even listening.

You simply, let go.