First and foremost, wherever you are in the world right now, I hope you're doing well. I hope you are having experiences that are shaping you into a man who is honest, confident, empathetic and self-aware. I hope you're happy with who you are right now, and I hope that your face lights up whenever you talk about whatever passions and dreams you're chasing after.

In all honesty, right now I am not in a position in which I am ready to bring you into my life. I am still working on molding myself into the person I want to be, and ultimately, that requires me to reserve some time to focus on myself and the woman I am becoming. At the moment, I am creating the best version of myself (lucky you!), and I hope you can respect the time I need to allocate towards that. Nonetheless, I still think about you often.

I hope we connect with each other at a time in our lives when we are confident in ourselves as individuals, so that we can more securely build up our relationship. Be aware of the fact that I did address this letter to the next man in my life, not the next boy in my life. I have no interest in becoming involved with a person who is unsure of who he is. Instead, I hope that you are confidently headed in your own direction with specific goals and aspirations, and that our paths cross when we are both trying to achieve our own separate goals. I want us both to learn to love and accomplish things for ourselves before we attempt to love and accomplish things for each other.

I only have one single expectation of you, and that is for you to be firmly grounded in your faith. No longer do I have foolish and immature dreams of loving the richest man or the most handsome man in the world. Rather, I now lay awake hoping that you walk closely with God. I pray that we build the foundation of our relationship upon our relationships with God, and trust that He give us guidance during our time together. I hope that when I look at you, I am reminded not only of how much you care for me, but also of how much God cares for me.

Please forgive me in advance for being an utterly imperfect person. Please forgive me for the emotional wounds I have inflicted upon myself in my search for you, spending too much time trying to shape other guys into versions of you. Please forgive me because I am not the most attractive girl that you will meet. I am not the funniest girl you will meet. I am not the most collected girl you will meet. However, I intend to accept you fully, flaws and all, without any intention to change the man that you are.

In turn, do not attempt to take advantage of the fact that I am aware of my weaknesses, for I am also entirely cognizant of my strengths. I am intelligent. I am beautiful. I am strong. I am fully deserving of a love that is exclusively between us, and I refuse to settle for anything less.

Whether I have already met you, or I meet you in forty years, or I meet you in some intermediate length of time: I am so excited for us. Together, I want us to be so strong. I pray that our individual qualities compliment one another in the most conducive ways possible. I look forward to having a man like you in my life, and I cannot wait to move mountains with you.

Sending my love,

Anna