Sometimes, we have to just let go.

It's the classic saying.

Just let go.

Let go of the worries, the pain, the grief, the memories which only create fear and self pity.

We tattoo it on our bodies.

We hang pictures on our walls.

We place magnets on the fridge.

All saying let go of the things that drag us down, because tomorrow is a brighter day.

But what about when we have to let go of something we love? Something that used to give us so much strength, so much relief, so much happiness.

What if it becomes the very thing that leaves us empty, weak, and lost?

But we love it.

It holds a special place in our hearts.

How do we let go of that?

And there is no easy answer. I wish there was.

We stay awake at night, wishing for sleep but our thoughts will not settle. We ask ourselves,

Do I stay?

Or do I go?

And then we wonder.

We contemplate.

If I stay, what happens to me?

Do I become a shell of the person I used to be? Once so full of life, but now as dreary and lonely as a cloudless winter day.

Or do I go, and lose a part of me?

How can I survive if I lose that part, when for so long it's been a constant comfort.

I have given so much.

I have pursued.

I have learned.

I have endured.

Doing my best to reach perfection.

Hours and hours I gave everything I had, giving part up a part of me that I will never get back.

How do I let go?

And the truth? You can't.

But you have to decide, what's best for me?

See, for some people, thinking about themselves is as difficult as it easy is for someone to think only for themselves.

That is, it comes natural to forget about yourself in order to help someone or something else.

And when it comes time to choose yourself, you don't know how.

But in order to let go, you have to. Because in the end, it's who you are that matters.

Sometimes we have to let go, because if we stay, we lose who we are

Sometimes, we have to let go in order to break free.

Let go. Live free.