My Social Anxiety
Health and Wellness

My Social Anxiety

Explaining my social anxiety to those who don't understand.

39

Social anxiety is something a lot of people identify as having, but many people don’t take it seriously or acknowledge it. I have social anxiety, and have found time and time again people just don’t understand what I mean or acknowledge what I’m saying when I mention it. Well, if you ever questioned my social anxiety, here’s my explanation of my situation for you.

Social anxiety is a part of my anxiety, the part that deals with all of my many types of social interactions, from ordering food to talking to my friends. Social anxiety is my hindrance and general fear in social settings, what my parents referred to as "shy behavior" when I was younger. I have always struggled to talk to people, to look them in the face and maintain a conversation without a stutter and fidgeting, and so on.

But, that’s just one part of it. I struggle with so many things, especially speaking with strangers. I could barely order my own food at restaurants until I was 12 or 13 years old. An interaction with a stranger feels almost like a battle to me, because a million things run through my head: if I’m talking right, if I sound stupid, if they think I’m weird or crazy, if they will be mean or tease me, and more. I’m always heavily embarrassed of myself in any new interaction, so my first impressions usually suck.

I don’t just struggle with strangers, but with friends and family as well. I’m constantly running through the right sentences to make their impression of me improve, and I run through jokes usually 8 times before I say them to make sure they aren’t flawed.

My social anxiety also means getting anxious in unfamiliar places filled with strangers, being alone in most types of places, and going to crowded places. Through the years, I have adapted to most of these factors, but I always feel a level of discomfort and fear, and need to psych myself up most times.

Through my life, I have always tried to explain to the people in my life how I feel, and I have been brushed off and simply referred to as shy or timid, or have had my feelings denounced. Of course, being a 12 year old who couldn’t order her food when her 9 year old sister could, made my parents rather frustrated with me, but they just didn’t understand how I felt. I understand that social anxiety isn’t something that is “serious”, but it should still be acknowledged and helped, so kids don’t end up having more trouble functioning in many social situations.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.

I was never really big on cocktails. Tequila soda is always a go-to drink for me because of its simplicity and, to be honest, lack of extra calories from mixers chock-full of sugar, chemicals, and other unknown ingredients. I like tequila, and like to be able to really savor it.

This all changed when, a couple of years ago, a friend of mine made me a margarita from scratch — no funky mixers involved — and it tasted incredible. It was light, refreshing, and complemented the tequila without overpowering it.

Keep Reading... Show less

I was blessed with thick, full hair up until my late teens. At the time, I cursed my hairiness — this was before full eyebrows became trendy or cool, and were instead a point of bullying many of my fellow full-browed teens can relate to.

Later in my 20s, hormonal stability was something I was thankful for, though a major side effect ended up being hair loss — on my head, lashes, and brows. I now find my filling in my brows on an almost daily basis. As much as I enjoy toying with and testing out different brow-filling products, it'll never be quite the same as being able to have "I woke up like this" full, Gigi Hadid-esque brows.

Keep Reading... Show less
Health and Wellness

May Is Mental Health Awareness Month, A Reminder We Need Even More In Quarantine

You're going through something brand new — that's worth talking about.

May is Mental Health Awareness Month. This isn't new to 2020, but oh man, if we ever needed a reminder about the importance of mental health, now is the time. With different states all over the place in regard to stay-at-home orders, phased reopenings, and a "new normal," we're experiencing conflict, fear, changes, and unknowns that can easily trigger mental struggles we already have or spark feelings we've never had before. Yes, May is always Mental Health Awareness Month, but in quarantine, that need for positive mental health is taken to a whole new level.

Keep Reading... Show less
Netflix

Everyone is LOVING "Outer Banks," as you've probably heard. And if you haven't caught the hype for the show yet, these articles will definitely give you a taste of what you're missing.

If you already have seen and fallen in love with the teen heartthrob crew, you need to get on board with some of these theories for season two!

Keep Reading... Show less
Lifestyle

These 11 Face Masks On Etsy Support Small Businesses While Fighting The Spread Of Coronavirus

We're staying safe as states start lifting lockdown guidelines.

I, like most people who have had the luxury of being able to stay at home during this time, haven't spent much time outdoors at all. But when I do brave the great outdoors for a walk or to get to the grocery store, you won't find me without a mask.

My family and I were lucky enough to have family friends who were sewing some and had extras to give to us, but most of my friends and loved ones outside my immediate family have had to order some (or make a makeshift one out of scarves or bandanas).

Keep Reading... Show less
Lifestyle

13 Reasons We're Using Quarantine As The Ultimate Excuse For Online Shopping This Month

The one thing we haven't distanced from is our bank account.

Throughout quarantine, I've been FaceTiming most of my friends in a full turtleneck or the go-to cozy sweater I keep wrapped around the chair in my room. Either way, I always have tea in my hands to keep myself warm — till this past week.

For most of the country who hasn't had the luck of quarantining in 90-degree weather on their family's lake house or with a backyard pool, things began to change this month. Our favorite shows came out with summer seasons, the sun came out, and we started spending more time outside.

Keep Reading... Show less
Facebook Comments