I just want to make it clear, that I by no means am or plan to a poet. I have only written one other poem my entire life. But to keep myself from going off and hurting myself mentally, emotionally, and physically after a break up, I started to read, (and reread) my poetry books. I wanted to vent, but I didn't want to write long Facebook status or share every sad post. I didn't even want to tell anyone. Although, I knew I needed to turn my hurt, pain and confusion into something healthy and healing. I started to write an article but I couldn't get the words out, unless they were in short pieces. So I tried, to with a poem.

Moving On

I want to change how you made me feel

I want to numb all the pain and hurt

that you left me to deal with

but how can I do that?

How can I numb the pain,

when I'm already numb?

I feel nothing at all

and at the same time

I feel everything at once

I'm like a walking corpse

begging for life again

And I would anything to get it

but nothing at the same time

How can one thing so simple

make me feel completely empty

and so full of pain and confusion

I've never been left more confused

more vulnerable

and so full of self hate

I've never felt this type of sadness

I was verging on depression again

But I slowly realized that I'll be okay

because I can see what you truly want

and what I truly need

And while my heart was with you

I learned why it should be with me

and I know I'll be more okay than ever