When I was doing Crossfit for the first time this past summer, I was constantly told by one of the coaches that I was mentally tough. I never got it. I was always really confused as to what that meant. One day he told me that my refusal to give up, no matter how much the workout of the day killed me, was mental toughness. And I thought about it. If I could go through a really hard workout and not quit, I was strong. If I could stick to the eating style that Crossfit uses, I would be stronger.

But after about three months, I had to stop paying for Crossfit. It was the hardest decision of my life. I loved doing all the workouts and the community that was at the box. But this was around the same time that I was dealing with so much stuff at school that I couldn't even get up most mornings. I was always tired and eventually I didn't have time to prepare my food. Now this goes back to if it was important I would have made time, but I didn't at the time.

Anyways, I believe that mental toughness is not just about being able to push yourself during the difficult times. But it is also the ability to make decisions, while unsavory, that will allow us to be better off.

Not everyone can make those decisions. I learned by watching the people around me go through tough times that could have been different if they only made the conscious decision to do something about it before it escalated.

This was only one case that I was mentally tough and there are many more where I wasn't. But I am working to change that.

Was leaving Crossfit a good decision? Although I regret having to leave, I know that at the current time it was what I needed to do. And just like I told my coach, it was only good bye for now.