Dear future husband, I am writing this letter to you today in a time of pain and suffering. I have been through more than I ever thought I could've handled. I hope that life is treating you better than it is treating me at the moment. I pray every day for your health, your wants, and your needs even if it may include a woman you think you are going to spend the rest of your life with. Only the Lord truly knows how much I love you even at this very moment, even if right now you lay beside another.

I may not know who you are and what you look like, but know that this wife who is waiting for you will accept you with open arms. I understand that we may not be what each other expected, but I know that we are what the other needs. We were destined and ordained by the Lord to be with each other. Just like Eve who was made from Adam's rib, my bones are made for the very purpose of being and growing with you. 

For that reason, I am sorry. I am sorry if you saved yourself for me because I didn't for you. The very thing that I can only give to you was already taken away by another. It was taken by someone who I thought was "the one". Little did I know he was just a mirage; a curse morphed to look like a blessing. It hurt a lot knowing that I was foolish enough to believe his sweet talks and lies. I hate how I was so blind by the obvious hints that he was not the one for me. I am sorry that this wife of yours isn't the perfect woman you thought she would be. 

But I've learned that every man, every incident, every relationship that broke me would eventually lead me into your loving arms. After all the hurt and pain that I would endure, I know you will be there ready to take the burden of their mistakes. As your wife, I vow to not allow my past to affect our future. I want to be able to look into your eyes and see the same love I have for you reflected right back to me. I want to stay up late talking and laughing with you and forget how time passes by. To be able to wake up and see you laying there peacefully next to me is something I wait so patiently in my heart to see. 

It's okay if you have made some mistakes too. I know you also have your own past. I understand if I am not the person you thought you would spend the rest of your life with. I understand if another woman may have been "the one" for you. But I promise that I will prove and reassure you every single day that the Lord chose the perfect woman to be yours. No matter how many guys may have had me, mentally or physically, they will never have the same amount of selflessness I will always have for you. 

To my future husband, I patiently wait for the day that we meet. I know that our first encounter will always be something engraved in my mind. I can not wait for the day that I take your last name, that I may de-stress you when you get home from work, that everything that you may ever want will be selflessly fulfilled by me with no expectation of getting anything back. I will be your peace in a world full of chaos. I will not be a stress in your life. My only wish is to be the person that stands beside you when times get tough and when life gets rough. 

So to my future husband,  I love you with all my heart. I am yours physically, mentally, and spiritually. All the other men were practice runs but you will always be my long run and the home run. At the end of the day, it is you and will always be you. 

From your loving wife who waits patiently to be yours