I've been waiting my whole life to find you, and boy, have I been through hell getting to you. I wanted to give you something to read regularly because you're going to need some help with me. I'm not the easiest person on this Earth. In all honesty, I'm probably one of the most difficult you will come across.

"The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved; loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves." - Victor Hugo

There are many characteristics you need to know about me if you have not already figured them out for yourself. I am a lover of nature. I have a passion for photography. I am ambitious. I love adventure. Lastly, I love hard.

"Love is like war: easy to begin but very hard to stop." - H. L. Mencken

First of all, I want to give you a fair warning about who I am. Unfortunately, you will have to endure the punishment of my past. I will be guarded. On some days I will be distant and try to push you away. I will tell you if you have done something wrong, so please do not think when I am this way that you are responsible. After I open my heart to you, I will love you more than you have ever felt loved in your lifetime. So, please, be patient with me, for I am fragile, and need to be refurbished.

"When love is not madness it is not love." - Pedro Calderon de la Barca

There will be times I will need you more than ever. Bad days. On these days I will need to be coddled and loved a little extra. The reasons could differ from anxiety, depression, or both. Despite what the reason may be, I will need you.

"One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is love." - Sophocles

I have many things I want to do before I get married and start a family. I want to travel and see all the world offers. I have a bucket list of places I want to go before I settle down. Some of those trips I may ask for your company, others I may need for myself. Please do not worry while I am away, I will always return to you.

"Your gorgeous chaos was a danger for my beautiful ordinary life, and I knew that. Then suddenly, we became beautifully extraordinary together." - R. M. Drake

One day, if you find enough love for me in your heart, you will propose. This will be one of the greatest days of my life. (My only request, please make sure my mom is there to take pictures for me.) I have dreamed about it since I was a small child. I don't want a huge fancy diamond, so please don't waste your money. The day you marry me will be the second greatest day of my life and the first will be the day I deliver our first baby. Being a mother is one of my grandest desires. (And yes, I already have names picked out.) We will have different ideas about parenting, and we can work through those, but my only wish is that our children will be raised in church and know God. That alone will fill my heart to the brim.

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. 1 Peter 4:8

Lastly, I will give you a couple tips for future reference. I will ask you often what is wrong and if everything is okay. I will apologize numerous of times for everything, even if it is out of my control or not my wrong-doing. Please don't get angry with me for this, I can not help it and it will most likely never change. I hate mornings but love the peace morning brings. I love my coffee on the creamy side, it has to be sweet. I love to write and express myself through art. I can be lazy and my room is always a mess. I am a family oriented person, therefore make sure you fall in love with my family too. Music speaks for me, so be prepared, I will always have music playing. Always kiss me before you leave me, it reassures and calms my thoughts. I promise you this: No matter how hard I am, I am worth it, you will see.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8