Trigger Warning: may have mentions of rape, suicide, and sexual assault.

During my senior year, "Glee" premiered on television. I thought it was very relatable to me as someone who was in choir all four years of high school. It was about a glee club filled with the outcasts of the school that no one really appreciates and it also had some of the popular kids in there too, the ones that love to perform but they are worried about what their peers will think of them.

I did like all the characters, but one that stood out to me was Puck, he was a typical bad boy but on the inside, he had a heart of gold, and he had a really good voice too! I actually ended up getting Mark Salling's CD for Christmas one year to listen to some of his original songs and they were so good.

That's why when the news came out that he had child porn on his computer, I was a mix of shocked and upset. It's very hard when someone who was on a show that helped you through a lot of things ends up on the news for that.

That wasn't his only offense. In 2013, he was accused of sexual battery by his ex-girlfriend. She said that he forced her to have unprotected sex with him without consent, and he did deny the charges. They eventually settled out of court after the judges ordered him to pay her money.

I did not want to believe that he possessed that stuff, but when he did plead guilty that is basically saying you did all of that, that you really did have photos of all those kids on that computer, that you did wrong.

Mark would have been sentenced in March of 2018, had to register as a sex offender and potentially spend four to seven years in jail.

But he did not make it to the hearing, as he was found dead on January 30, 2018. Most of the tweets were sympathetic, and most were celebrating his death as he did wrong. Only a few of his fellow co-stars said something about his death, compared to when Cory Montieth died and everyone was sympathetic.

What he did was disgusting, but that is no excuse to celebrate someone's death.

He still had a family. I, for one, did not celebrate when he died not because I like what he did, but because of his family. Why add to their pain?

I mourn what I thought he was, the character he played, the person his fellow cast members thought he was, the person his family thought he was.

What is sad is that the families of those kids won't get true justice and they won't even get restitution, which they do deserve.

Suicide is never the answer to anything. I think he should have faced his problems head-on instead of taking that way out.

If you are dealing with anything like this please call one of these numbers.
Suicide hotline: 1-800-273-8255
Sexual Abuse Hotline: 1-800-656-4673