To my Little Brother,

I want to start with an apology, for the person I became, it kills me knowing that I could have destroyed a perfect brother-sister relationship. Things are weird now aren’t they? I mean it’s been years since we learned how to pick up the pieces but we never got to be the same. I’m not the same. I don’t think I will ever be the same, and I don’t think you will either. I guess over the years we grew up, searched for ourselves, and kind of grew apart. We went from being little and playing toy story together all the time, to chasing each other with shaving cream around the house to see who could get hit first, to now growing up and trying to find our own paths...I want you to know that even though I am the older sibling (and you are the taller one) I see you as my protector, my best friend, even sometimes my role model.

Whenever I have a problem I go to you, and maybe nowadays you stare at your Xbox and don’t actually answer me, but I know you always listen, you let me crash in your room on your spare bed when I’m too scared to be alone, you save me when I’m a little too happy from wine, and you are always down for a car ride. Thank you for dealing with my bear hugs and drama, thank you for always sending me little texts because its nice to know that your life isn’t too hectic that it makes you forget that your big sister needs you. Although we annoy each other, I am still proud to call you my brother. You have helped me get through a lot in my life, you continue to help me even though I am away at college and you’re home (it’s weird not having you at school with me because even though you never said Hi to me in the hallway it was nice to see you and at least get a head nod.)

I want to thank you for giving me the chance to have a wonderful younger brother like yourself. Over the years I forgot to tell you how much you meant to me, but you mean the world to me. You were always my inspiration to get better, because I remembered that I had a little brother I needed to be a good role model for, I know I wasn’t the best but thanks for never being hard on me for that. I love you little brother.

Even though you’re the boy with little to say, I know right now you’re at the age where you think it’s you against the world… I want you to know its not. Because I will ALWAYS be there to have your back. These past 16 years with you have been some of the craziest times of my life, but I wouldn’t trade anything. I am extremely proud of everything you have accomplished, and continue to accomplish in your life. I’m excited to see where life takes you little brother, just know that I will forever be by your side to annoy you and will always try to the best of my abilities to protect you.

Love Yai.