That Episode When I Realized That I Love The Life I'm Living

That Episode When I Realized That I Love The Life I'm Living

Surround yourself with people who genuinely care about your well-being.

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The title of this article may sound deceiving when you read the first paragraph but bear with me.

I had heart surgery about two weeks ago. For me, I was excited about it, because my situation with my heart was driving me insane. For others around me, they were scared for me.

Trust me, I have watched enough Grey's Anatomy to know that the surgeons are basically Gods. I assured everyone that I would be okay, and everything would be okay afterward.

However, as my surgery date grew closer, I could feel the nervousness throughout my body. For a second, I was scared for my life. I thought "why me?" or "I literally hate my life so much" or "why can't one thing go right in my life?" I started to second guess this whole surgery thing.

It was a Tuesday morning when my surgery was scheduled. I was sweating. My mom kept asking me if I was nervous and I kept saying no. In all honesty, I was very nervous. The last thing I remember before was the anesthetist saying "okay Ta'lor, just take deep breaths and you'll be awake before you know it."

The surgery was about 2.5 hours long. I was loopy as Hell. Apparently, I asked the nurse if I was okay to go to the club? On a Tuesday? With incisions on both sides of my groin? High Ta'lor is a brave Ta'lor.

Once that wore off, I asked my mom for my phone. I had about 56 different text messages, 34ish snapchats, and an overwhelming amount of notifications on Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook.

My heart stopped. Not actually of course, because I just got it fixed. The amount of love that I received that day made me hate my high school self.

I was really going to end my life back then because I thought no one cared about me. I am SO thankful that I waited it out because now I am at a point in my life where I actually love waking up. Why was I scared of this surgery in the first place?

My best friend came to my recovery room that night when it was icing and snowing at the same time. She came just to make sure I was okay. Could she have just called me? Yes. But she took the time out of her night to come and see me. That bitch really had the nerve though to ask if she could take out all three of my IVs... it was a no from me.

I was exhausted when I finally got to go home. However, the next day, I texted everyone back, thanking them. The crazy part is that it wasn't people that I have known for years. It was people that I had just met or have only known for a month or so.

A friend of mine came over that day and brought me chocolate covered strawberries. In my head, I was thinking "maybe I should have this surgery every week." Another friend of mine came over and brought me the sweetest card along with the greatest note that I have ever received. Might as well marry him, am I right?

Last but not least, another one of my GREAT friends brought me flowers, candy, a note (with poems included), and a Sprite. Three visitors in one day, you'd think I'm Demi Lovato or something. It warmed my heart to think that these people took time out of their busy schedules to come to spend some time with me afterward.

I am not kidding, when I say that things will get better and you will get out of that dark place, I absolutely mean it. I still get an overwhelming amount of check-ins.

Remove toxic people from your life and replace them with people who allow you to grow and who make you into a better person. You need people in your life that are willing to check up on you. Especially in today's times. The world is crazy and the people I have in my life are the biggest blessings. I definitely lucked out.

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If You've Ever Been Called Overly-Emotional Or Too Sensitive, This Is For You

Despite what they have told you, it's a gift.
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Emotional: a word used often nowadays to insult someone for their sensitivity towards a multitude of things.

If you cry happy tears, you're emotional. If you express (even if it's in a healthy way) that something is bothering you, you're sensitive. If your hormones are in a funk and you just happen to be sad one day, you're emotional AND sensitive.

Let me tell you something that goes against everything people have probably ever told you. Being emotional and being sensitive are very, very good things. It's a gift. Your ability to empathize, sympathize, and sensitize yourself to your own situation and to others' situations is a true gift that many people don't possess, therefore many people do not understand.

Never let someone's negativity toward this gift of yours get you down. We are all guilty of bashing something that is unfamiliar to us: something that is different. But take pride in knowing God granted this special gift to you because He believes you will use it to make a difference someday, somehow.

This gift of yours was meant to be utilized. It would not be a part of you if you were not meant to use it. Because of this gift, you will change someone's life someday. You might be the only person that takes a little extra time to listen to someone's struggle when the rest of the world turns their backs.

In a world where a six-figure income is a significant determinant in the career someone pursues, you might be one of the few who decides to donate your time for no income at all. You might be the first friend someone thinks to call when they get good news, simply because they know you will be happy for them. You might be an incredible mother who takes too much time to nurture and raise beautiful children who will one day change the world.

To feel everything with every single part of your being is a truly wonderful thing. You love harder. You smile bigger. You feel more. What a beautiful thing! Could you imagine being the opposite of these things? Insensitive and emotionless?? Both are unhealthy, both aren't nearly as satisfying, and neither will get you anywhere worth going in life.

Imagine how much richer your life is because you love other's so hard. It might mean more heartache, but the reward is always worth the risk. Imagine how much richer your life is because you are overly appreciative of the beauty a simple sunset brings. Imagine how much richer your life is because you can be moved to tears by the lessons of someone else's story.

Embrace every part of who you are and be just that 100%. There will be people who criticize you for the size of your heart. Feel sorry for them. There are people who are dishonest. There are people who are manipulative. There are people who are downright malicious. And the one thing people say to put you down is "you feel too much." Hmm...

Sounds like more of a compliment to me. Just sayin'.

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I Went From Losing Weight To Lifting Weights, And Now I'm In The Best Shape Of My Life

How a change in my fitness goals changed my life.

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I am in the best shape of my life...or at least I think so, and that's what truly matters.

I look in the mirror and feel confident.

I finally feel comfortable wearing crop tops, and I'm even starting to show visible abs. But getting here has been such a difficult journey filled with eating disorders, body dysmorphia, and other physical and mental struggles that hindered my ability to achieve my goals.

I have been on this health and fitness journey for many, many years now. I've been a size 00, a size 12, and every size in between.

Through it all, I have learned so much about myself, as well as fitness and nutrition in general. My biggest takeaway that led me to overcome all these obstacles was learning to let go of my perfectionism. When I'm old, I don't want to look back on my life and realize that I spent it all trying to lose weight. So, I changed my mindset.

My new focus was to be as strong as possible—to lift the heaviest weights, rather than losing the most weight. If you too, want to be in the best shape of your life but have struggled for so long, read my tips below.

1. EAT MORE

I know, it sounds crazy. As women, we are constantly told about diets and cutting calories. If you just want to be skinny, you can do that. But if you want to be strong, you need to eat to be able to put on the muscle.

2. ALLOW YOURSELF TO HAVE CHEAT MEALS

If you have struggled with eating disorders like me, satisfying your cravings will prevent you from having major setbacks.

3. LIFT WEIGHTS

Get your butt off that elliptical and into the weight room.

4. DON'T WORKOUT EVERY DAY

Again, especially if you want to build muscle, you need rest days. These are the days where your muscles are "actually" growing.

5. DON'T RUSH IT

You will not see abs overnight. It takes a long time. But if you want sustainable results, you must treat your body right.

I hope these tips are helpful. With positivity and patience, you can achieve anything.

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