It has been almost three months since what feels like the longest semester ever has begun. It feels as though years have gone by since I have been home and what felt like a fun college experience last year has turned into endless stress.

Don't get me wrong, I love my school and my program, but it becomes too much at times. I miss feeling as though I can be myself and have time to myself. I wake up at 6:30 AM most mornings and go from class to class, absorbing materials but at times it feels as though I'm just there. The days that used to be exciting suddenly aren't anymore and perhaps it's just exhaustion, but maybe it is something more. When do I say, enough is enough and stop trying to do everything all at once.

My anxiety is at an all time high and I'm too involved in everything that I don't have the time to acknowledge it most of the time. Most of the time I am moving from one thing to another and trying to breathe but even that becomes hard at times. I try to do so much to the point where I'm not sure if I'm doing enough or if what I am doing is right.

It gets hard, but I know that it is worth it. I know that everything has a reason. I know that what seems hard now and trying are things that will help me be who I want to be. It is said that there is a light at the end of every tunnel, and I believe that. I believe that you have to hit bottom before you can climb to the top.

I'm not the only person who has anxiety when it comes to course work, which is why I feel the need to say this: the stress will pass, and you will be okay.

It will be okay.