Each and everyday, I wake up and I think to myself, "Today is gonna be a good day." Unfortunately, sometimes that's not always the case with my panic disorder. I know everyone has a little bit of anxiety, but for me a day can turn into a nightmare.

A simple task such as shopping (I know, right?) can make my anxiety level go through the roof.

Here's an example:

For Mother's Day this year, I bought my mom a necklace that had her sign on it (she's a Gemini, if you were wondering). I bought it online from a company in Germany. After the purchase was made, my mind started thinking, "You just bought something from another country and someone's going to steal your identity." That's when it all starts.

I started pacing around my dorm room. "How could I be so stupid to do that? You know people could easy take your information overseas." At this point I begin crying and shaking. Then, an elephant walked into my room and took a seat right on my chest. I started gasping for air, but it's no use; he's not going to move. I'm stuck and can't seem to break free, but after a while, I somehow calm myself down.

Months before this, I suffered two or three attacks. One of them happened in the middle night and I had to leave my dorm room and sit in the bathroom to try and calm myself. The constant battles I have to fight to keep myself emotionally stable each and everyday are tiring, but it's just another part of me that I have to live with.

"Worrying does not take away tomorrow's troubles. It takes away today's peace." -- Randy Armstrong