"Go to bed" isn't that simple. I honestly want those who can just lay down at night and fall asleep in 5 minutes to write a guide book. I could run a marathon and climb a mountain and still not sleep like a baby at the end of the day. In fact, the last good night's sleep I have had was probably in the womb. No, I'm not on my phone and computer all night texting, blogging and tweeting. Yes, my last resort is to go back downstairs to watch some TV, and maybe have a little snack but then that "snack" winds up being the whole pantry. Do I want to sleep when everyone else does? Yes of course but does every fiber of my being let me? No, why would it? It's not that I'm overthinking. I'm just thinking too much. There's a difference. To me, overthinking is going above and beyond about the worst that could happen and drowning in negativity. Thinking too much is when there I simply too much on your mind and it won't rest. Maybe you can't stop thinking about someone or something. Anxiety can also play a part in this. Those who have it (maybe not diagnosed) know the pain and struggle. Some have it worse than others. When the sun goes down at night, the thoughts keep pouring in and it is hard to stop.
While everyone is sound asleep, enjoying some dreams; you are wide awake. Trying to figure what is going to do the trick of putting you to sleep this time. It's frustrating. To never be able to just simply go to bed.
"Maybe you're so tired all day is because you don't sleep at night and stay up" it isn't our choice to be up all night. Yeah, it's fun staying up with friends until the late hours of the night but when you're just laying there at 4am wide awake, it's no fun. It's annoying and you get annoyed with yourself because it seems as if nothing you do during the day does the trick to exhaust you at night
It is both a blessing and a curse. When you save that really difficult assignment and or project for the night before its due, you may think to yourself "well at least I'll have no problem staying up to get this done tonight" or if you some reason need to be up late, you are in luck, When all you want to do is sleep, that is when it becomes a curse. When you have too much to do for the next day, it could just make this insomnia even worse. When there is no one to keep you company, no one that will answer a text because they're sleeping, all you are left with is your thoughts
Thank god music and TV are awake 24/7 to keep you company all of the time, right?
