So it’s holiday time guys and I want to seriously wish everyone the brightest New Year’s you can have.
I’m spending this wonderful break from school doing guess what...HOMEWORK!!! SPORTS!!! CLEANING!!! God I love breaks from school, the anxiety I get just gives me the biggest thrills of a lifetime. But for once in my life I actually have plans for this holiday break. I know what you’re thinking, Lila Orr actually can leave her house and visit people. And you can probably tell I read minds and trust me, I surprise myself daily with what I now can accomplish.
Today, after the multiple errands I had to run for my mom and for myself, I visited a friend.
I threw on a dirty sweatshirt, rolled the waistband of my unwashed Adidas soccer pants, tied my new ash blonde hair back into a ponytail, grabbed my lanyard, and headed out to visit her. With my Nathan’s water bottle as a security blanket in my hand and my phone buzzing in the other, I placed my sunglasses on the bridge of my nose and turned on the car. As I drove and listened to my iPhone for directions to I place I vaguely knew how to get to I came to the idea of how life really does move on.
It’s crazy how you can spend your whole holiday season waiting for Christmas or Hanukkah or whatever you celebrate and when it comes, it goes just as fast. Life just moves on and continues. It never gives you a chance to enjoy everything you want out of the holiday. It just kind of happens and then stops. And then you go back to the cycle of waiting for it to come again. It sucks to have waited for something for so long for it just to leave as fast as it came. Life and time can really fuck up your life, let me tell you.
My friend recently had a baby.
His name is Jonathan.
She is the definition of life goes on.
All of us waited for what seemed like eons waiting for his arrival. Nine months is friggin long ass time, let me tell you. I remember sitting my car in July sipping green teas with her talking about life and how slow time would go by until he came into her life. We talked about both of our futures like we actually knew what to expect. She barely looked pregnant but of course life moved along with Jonathan growing inside of her. The summer, which included senior portraits, a new job for me, a vacation for both of us, and it ended very quickly and we both headed into our senior year.
Life was still going on and it never slowed down after September started. I swear it was like someone stepped on the hands of time and gave it a boost to speed everything up. October came with her baby shower we had talked about back in July along with Halloween, me dressing up as a donut and her preparing to welcome a son. Life never slowed down for me after that. It just continued on and never let me enjoy a moment to relish in. It’s as if all of my memories from September to now are just one big mush of a thought.
Thanksgiving disappeared in the blink of an eye and December was welcomed with open arms because for the first time, time slowed down greatly. I was able to start enjoying my last holiday at home before college, my last season of track with some of my best friends, and the excitement of waiting for her son to be born. Since time slowed down greatly so did the process of welcoming Jonathan into the world. Time is sometimes an evil person and does something to you called, waiting. So all us of waited, and waited, and waited for something to finally happen.
And guess what?
Life moved on.
I met her sign of life today and he is so beautiful.
But sadly, life and time moved on too fast.
That’s the thing with life we will always struggle with. We always wait for the biggest moment in our lives to happen and when it comes, we just watch it happen. We can never relish in the moment it first happened. It’s the saddest part of life to realize that life will never stop for anything and it’s you who have to stop everything you’re doing and enjoy it.
Today we both relished in the moment and for the first time in forever, life and time adjusted it’s speed for us.
