Life after losing you has been tough. It's been full of tears, anger, sadness and the question why? I cry and I hurt because I just don't understand. Life without you is hard. Life without you is different. Life without you & the pain that I've felt is indescribable. I never took my mind off of you and I never thought something like this would happen to me.
Life after losing you made me think. I was more aware, more cautious and my heart hurt even more for those who lost someone like you. I learned and I grew as a person. I was a helping hand to every person who had told me that they needed help. You showed me how to take a bad situation and grow from it. I helped, I saved and I made a difference to those who needed someone who knew what it felt like to lose you.
Life after losing you made me change. I grew up. I became stronger, I knew how it felt to have the ultimate heartbreak. I wasn't the same and I put my guard up to protect me from losing another person just like I lost you. People didn't understand me and why I acted the way I did. Why was I so stubborn? Why was I so scared to lose someone? Nobody understands, until they've lost someone like you.
Life after losing you brought me closer to the people I needed the most. I ran to my mom when I hurt because she was one of the few people who knew how bad it felt to lose you. People say they understand, but sometimes they don't. Nobody knew how bad losing you affected me. People tried saying that they were "Here for me" and that they "Were so sorry" but those people who seemed to care at the time, are now nowhere to be found.
Life after losing you was a challenge. I had to realize and face some of the hardest truths. Since I lost you, I had to accept that you won't be able to attend some of the biggest moments in my life. No graduation, leaving for college, wedding or even my kids. Even though those were things you couldn't physically be there for, I knew you were there in spirit.
Life after losing you made me realize that people take things for granted. I miss you more than anything, but I know you're in a better place. I'm thankful that I was able to have you, even though it wasn't for as long as I wished. You have given me a life lesson that was very hard but I've pushed through it. Keep watching over me please, I'll see you soon.
