Hi it’s me again,

It’s mind blowing to think that it’s been years at this point. I remember it like it was yesterday; it’s very bittersweet to think about. I know I can only speak for myself, but you have without a doubt made the most impact on my life out of anyone I have ever met. Hands down.

I want to start off by saying I am sorry. I am sorry for not appreciating you when I had you. In hindsight now I had no idea what you would mean to me. It is so unfortunate I did not acknowledge that to the same degree years ago. I hate the fact that it literally took moving across the country in order for me to realize my love for you.

I also want to thank you; I want to thank you for being one of the only people whose presence could brighten my mood and forget about whatever dumb thing I was sulking over. You always knew what to say and just your arms around me brought an overwhelmingly calmness to my anxiety.

We can both agree time was not on our side and up until this point in time it has not been, and time unfortunately is imperative in any situation. Like most we were on and off periodically and prior to moving we both took that for granted. I pray one day that time is once again rooting for us.

All I want is for you to be happy. So happy that you jump out of bed in the morning because you are that eager to start your day. I want you to find pointless hobbies that make you lose track of time and sleep because the utility gained is so great. I want you to find that career that sparks a burning passion within your soul, and I want you to find someone to share that with. Someone that brings out the best in you and constantly challenges you to be a better man than the day before. I pray constantly that you find that even if it is not with me.

My worst fear is that you forget about me and you forget about us. I know you better than that to know that even though you don’t always vocalize what you’re feeling that you have the same raw emotions that I do, and that you do have deep sentimental feelings. I worry that one day our special bond won’t mean to you what it will to me forever. I can only hope that you won’t forget about what we had.

You taught me an abundance about myself, about what I want and my aspirations in life. You taught me that I should never settle. Never settle for anything less than I deserve. You showed me a love that I cannot articulate into words. I cannot articulate the gratitude I have for you because of that. It opened my eyes to a world that I will refuse to settle for. You taught me that I should never take life for granted. Anything can happen at any point in time and it is vital to tell everyone in your life that you love them while you have the chance. Tomorrow is never a guarantee.

A mistake I have acknowledged is thinking that this gets easier. It’s as if the wound is still completely open and nowhere near healing. You forever changed me; the way I look at the world and everything in it. I still think about you constantly; I wonder how you’re doing and what you’re doing. You made such an impact so long ago and it feels like it was just yesterday I pulled out of the driveway only to say goodbye for good. The feeling was unbearable. I lost a part of me that day that I haven’t seen since.

The bond we have is truly once in a lifetime. I cannot imagine or fathom meeting anyone that will even have the potential to come close to the connection we have shared. You will forever have a piece of me, always, and the love I have for you is absolutely endless whether we cross life paths in the future or not. Just know that I will always love you, and a piece of my heart forever belongs to you.

Xoxo Me