Er…hello, there, uh…Dear? Sweetie? Handsome? Good lookin’? Sorry, I’m not totally sure where to start and, as you can see, I’m not so great with the “putting sappy words and nicknames together and making them sound good” thing as it seems most teenage girls are. I’m assuming that I won’t find you for at least a few years, and that’s OK. I’m in absolutely no hurry. I’ve been waiting 19 years for you, so I suppose a few more won’t kill me. If I’m being totally honest, I never thought you would actually come around. All my life, I’ve been a witness to seemingly happy relationships all around me, but I was never so lucky. Not that I wanted to date when I was too young, anyway, but there were definitely times in my recent life that would’ve been much easier to deal with if you had been by my side. As I understand, and being the God-loving man that I hope you are, I’m sure you do too…it’s all in His timing. I realize that when the both of us are ready, our paths will cross and (hopefully) remain merged as one for the rest of our lives. However, before we take our first step to forever, there are some things that you should know about me.
1. I'm a rookie!
Of course, I’ve been interested in my fair share of guys, but when it comes to dating and all of that jazz, I’m the inexperienced rookie. The girl who stutters and stumbles on her words, isn’t quite sure what make-up she should use (if any at all), and I’m definitely not up to date on the latest trends. I am a devoted follower of God, so no, I have not “been around” or dated every single guy that I see. I took a vow to wait for you, and wait for you, I will. So, please, bear with me when I mix up my words, laughing nervously all the while, because I will do that. Let me look adoringly into your eyes to see what I find. Trust that, while I’m as flustered as can be, it’s only because you are someone special to me, someone that I have waited and waited for, and that I don’t want to mess this up. While my inexperience may cause alarm, trust me to give all of myself to our relationship and making it work, because I will do just that.
2. I'm original.
I understand that so much of today’s dating world is casual and that old-fashioned candlelight dinners and picnic dates under the stars have been replaced by things like “Netflix and Chill” or Skype conversations. But here’s the thing…I’m not a typical girl in today’s dating world. I want the original dinners, the picnics, the spontaneous visits late at night, bring me flowers because you want to, pick me up and take me anywhere, pray with me when troubles tower over us, learn your tickle spots, take adoring pictures with me because they’re us, relationship. I’m 19, going on 20, and I’m too old for playing games. Life is too short for meaningless, so I need to know if you can see this going anywhere. I’m not someone that looks around, attracted to any available guy. I have waited and waited for you, and I will give my all to only you, so I would appreciate your honesty. Am I someone that you can see yourself growing old and settling down with? Starting a family with? Growing in your faith with? No, I don’t need to know every little thing about you on our first date. But I would like to. I want you to let me in. What has life thrown your way, shaping you into the man that sits before me? What has been your most humbling moment? How do you think God is using you to change this world? Tell me everything. Are you neat and tidy? Scatter-brained and unorganized? What dreams spin through your mind late at night? Are you close to your mother? How do you like your coffee, or do you even like coffee? These seemingly meaningless details are all so important because, to me, they’re the basis of it all. I don’t ask you to tell me of these deep details of your life to scare you off – that’s the last thing that I want to do! But these questions, these values and virtues that you hold, will be the foundation on which our relationship is built. I want to fall into you knowing that you’ll catch me.
3. I'm scared.
And I’ll apologize for this now. I’m not the easiest person to deal with, especially when I’m scared. But you’re the person that I’ve been waiting for and I want to be that person for you – of course I’m going to be afraid of messing up. My confidence has definitely taken a beating over the last few years in ways that you can only imagine…but you’ll find that out eventually. All I ask is that you reassure me when I need it, which will be pretty frequently, I’m sure. We can and will work through all of this and figure it out together and I can’t wait to do that! I have to make this known, though…as you’ll find out at some point, I have a very important figure in my life. Like, so important that your future kid could steal his name. Since this is true, you have some very big shoes to fill. I know how women are supposed to be treated, and I sincerely hope that you can take every one of my expectations and standards and just blow it out of the water. I want to help you grow as much as I can, as a man of God, as my husband, as a friend, a son, a brother, a father, whatever else you may be. And even though I may be scared, I firmly believe that we can accomplish so much together.
4. I have big dreams, and I plan on making them a reality with or without you!
Now, I know that sounds harsh…but let it be said! I would absolutely love to have you along for the ride. After all…you’re supposed to be my husband, and I want your full support more than you could possibly know. I’ve been called to heal people, and if all of my dreams are coming true, then you’ve been called to do the same! I want nothing more than to change this world with you and my best friend by my side. If you’re the guy I’ll spend forever with, you’ll get to know and love her very much! But the point is…she was here first. And He was here before anyone else. So, I will pursue His plans before anything else and if you’re the guy that I think you are, you will, too. Since you’re “the one”, though, I think we’re both following His script pretty well, don’t you? I just hope and pray that you can support my dreams and ambitions in the way that I need you to do so, and I hope you can join us on this incredible journey.
5. I love you!
More than I ever thought I could love a man, a bushel, a peck, a hug around the neck, I can’t squeeze you enough, thiiiiiiiiiiiis much and more…that’s how much I love you. And that coming from me is a big deal…I don’t just tell people that! Outside of family, only two people (and now you) have heard those three words come out of my mouth, and those people happen to be incredibly important people in my life, so you’re joining a renowned list here, bud! But in all seriousness…I do adore you. And I look up to you in so many ways. To finally have found you and to be able to spend my life growing with you is an absolute treasure and I thank you so much for every minute of this adventure!
Even though I don’t know you yet (that I know of), I pray for you and your safety every day. I pray that God blesses your life with much happiness and laughter, and I hope one day to partake in not only these happy things, but many more, including the dark and gloomy, by your side. Until then, keep your head up. He has a wonderful plan for you, and I can’t wait to play my part in it. You are a beautiful soul, and I’m so ready to spend the rest of my life fulfilling our purposes together. Stay safe, and I’ll see you when I see you.
Love,
Me
