It’s funny, right? That someone can mean so much to you at one point in your life and then just vanish like they were never in your life at all. It's almost like the friendship you created with them ultimately meant nothing. And even if you try to do anything, it doesn't matter because they are basically a stranger again.
It hurts. I thought we would be best friends for a lifetime. I thought after high school we would become even better friends. That we would become inseparable. But boy was I wrong. What happened? What happened to us? It feels like a friendship "breakup." Never knowing what happened, and why, and not having any closure to feel just a little better.
I remember everything. I remember all the good and bad memories we had. There are days where I wish I didn’t have any memories of you because sometimes it hurts. It hurts that you just walked out of my life and stopped even caring. I know, I wasn’t that great of a friend. I know sometimes I would choose my boyfriend, at the time, over you. And I know you got sick of it. I know that’s one of the reasons why you stopped trying. But at the same time, I needed you there. I was crying for help and you left. You left me. I know you had a lot of stuff going on with you as well and I tried to be there for you. Maybe I was too late, but at least I still tried, at least I still tried to make an effort to be your friend.
But it was so easy for you to just say goodbye, to just never talk to me again. It hurts. To have someone that meant so much to you, to just walk away, and just to become a stranger so fast. I don’t even know who you are anymore. I don’t know what you’re doing with your life or anything. I contact you, I reach out and yet I get nothing, but a “like” on Facebook. I’m sorry, but it’s not good enough. I’ve tried to see you over college breaks and yet it feels like you try anything to avoid me. I’m just trying to be a friend and yet you make me feel like I’m the evil person here. I’m sorry that I still want to be your friend. I didn’t know it was a crime.
It just hurts. We were best friends. We did everything with each other, literally. I guess maybe we just changed. Maybe we were meant to grow apart from each other, to go in different directions. Remember our saying: Everything happens for a Reason. Well maybe our friendship ended for a reason that I will never understand. The sad part is that I will still try and no matter how many times I try, I still won’t get a single word back from you. Maybe I just need to learn to let go and move on.
