Hi ex-best friend. How are you? We hardly speak anymore, and that is probably what hurts my feelings the most about this whole thing. Part of my knows you don't care - if you did, we would still be friends. But I do hope that on occasion you think of me and miss me too. I wish things didn't end the way they did between us, but I know it is too late now.
I miss being able to share things with you; you were the one person I was supposed to be able to tell everything to. I miss being able to look over at you and know exactly what you were thinking. I miss your family. We started drifting apart. You started getting new friends. New "cooler" friends, and I didn't fit in. You tried to include me, but it was a forced effort, and I didn't feel like I genuinely belonged.
There are a lot of things I miss from our friendship. I miss late night milkshakes, cooking dinner together, studying at our favorite coffee shop on Sunday mornings, getting Starbucks before class, listening to music in the car, and everything else we did. I never thought that those days would end, but what I guess nothing lasts forever.
There are a lot of things I need to thank you for. Thank you for always listening to me. Thank you for being honest with me and for caring about me. Thank you for accepting me, and never judging me. Thank you for teaching me that nothing in life is constant, and that no one owes you anything. And thank you for being the best friend I needed at that point in my life.
There are times where I scroll through our old pictures and videos and smile to myself. I find screenshots of our old conversations on my computer and immediately miss you. I will hear or see something that reminded me of an inside joke we had, and I want to text you about it. But I know I can't. I know that our time as best friends has faded.
I don't hate you. In fact, I really do hope that you are happy. Despite everything, I still care about you. You deserve to be happy, healthy, and loved. I hope your new best friend gets excited about finding new music, loves working out, goes shopping with you, always has your back, and loves you as much as I did. I hope you stop settling for jerks and realize you deserve much, much better. I hope you get your dream job and that your life comes together the way you want it to.
Most importantly, I hope that you forgive me too. I hope that you don't resent me, and I hope that our friendship meant as much to you as it did to me.
