To my broken self,
As of right now, everything seems hopeless, broken, and worst of all, lonely. You feel like no one can take this awful feeling in your gut and turn it into a sense of laughter. During the moments when your head is screaming, stomach is churning, and you can’t breathe due to your heart beating faster than you could ever imagine, you’re about to crawl into bed and call it a day. While you make this decision, your head begins to scream and reminds about all of the negative things in your life. Your grades, drama, mistakes you have made, etc. At this moment, you feel like the best thing you can do is not wake up, but I want you to remember that:
You are not alone.
and
It will get better.
I know right now, it doesn't feel like that will ever happen. You feel like the worst will just keep happening to you like a domino effect. While you think of these continuous depressing moments, you ask yourself, “why me?” and to that question, God replies, “because you’re stronger than the others.” You are stronger than the people who you believe have the best lives. These obstacles are thrown in your way because God knows it is only a bump in the road for your road to success.
Of course, one letter cannot fix the problem, but it sure can remind you of who you are, what your values are, and what you believe you have been put on this earth to do. With all of these reminders, it can be summed up with three words, “love yourself first.”
You are not broken, you are only in pain. Pain can be cured, and it will be. I am not writing this letter to remind you to smile and say that everything is perfect because it isn't and it never will be. With that said, though, the power of self-love is perfect. Do not fall into the trap just so you can get out of the issue. Stick your ground because you are worth the fight, the love, and the beauty of life.
Think of yourself as lucky that you have been chosen to defeat all of these obstacles. The only reason you keep getting thrown them is because people know you can beat them. You can do anything you put your mind to and that is a guarantee. Put up your fight for what you believe in because the only way to be healed is through the power of yourself.
You are worth it and you will get through it. I promise.
Love,
Your true self
