After being in college for a year, I feel as though I have been around the world and back. I have seen new things, learned new lessons, and met many new people that will stay in my life forever. However, there are some people I truly hope I never have to encounter again. There are people out there that have caused me nights of endless tears and to feel as if I am lesser than who I am. Even though they are not the definition of who I am, I've found that I'm grateful for these experiences and without them, I would not have learned what it means to bounce back and never settle for anything less than amazing. Thank you to all the boys who have tried to bring me down, you have truly made me a better woman.
Ghosting me didn't hurt; it just made me realize that you weren't worth my time.
Thank you for pretending not to see my messages and ignoring me in public settings. Truly from the bottom of my heart, it feels great to say I'll be ignoring you all next semester also. If you thought I was emotional about you ignoring me, I was at first. But thanks to you, I learned when to let go of someone who's not benefiting me in any way and makes me feel like less than what I'm worth. It was a little difficult to block your number, but at the end of the day, it made my first semester better than before. I also learned how to ghost someone if necessary, and that it's really not as hard as it seems.
Jealousy didn't work with me; it just made me less interested in you.
If you truly thought that flirting with several girls in front of me in a public setting was making me more into you, you are so very wrong. Instead, you made me angry and basically ruined my night. I realized that I didn't want to talk to someone who had to use other people to get me to be interested in them. I would say I'm a very protective person, and I didn't like watching girls on top of you. Thank you for showing me that I won't settle for someone who thinks I want to watch them be with someone else when I only want them.
And to the one who almost gave me everything; thank you for making me let you go.
"It's not you, it's me," you said, and I didn't believe you until now. I would have been so unhappy throughout college and probably would not have met the people I did. I wouldn't have had the opportunity to open up to other people or experience the things that I did. I needed to have my own life without you to realize that I'm doing just fine on my own. Maybe I just wanted you to want me instead of actually wanting to be with you. Even now, I don't find myself wishing we were still together.? It's something I never thought I would accomplish. Thank you for forcing me to let the person I thought you were gone. You changed beyond belief and showed me that I was not okay with certain changes you made in your own life.
To all the boys I've been hurt by, you made me want to cry and rip my heart out. You all taught me different lessons and showed me that even though darkness there is light at the end of the tunnel. Everything you all taught me will be something I keep with me forever and in future relationships so that I can be happy. Just know that I hold no grudges, but I truly, sincerely hope I never see you again.
