Relationships come and go. Sometimes the break up is easy, while others make you feel as if a semi-truck ran you over. You can feel it when you aren't meant to be with someone, but what happens when the love of your life leaves. A piece of you is forever gone. It's the most painful and tragic thing in the world. You are left with an empty feeling in your chest. Eventually, you heal, until something reminds you of them, then you have to start all over again. So, here's to the one that got away.
Dear ______,
They say time heals all wounds, but it's been a while now and every fiber in my body still aches for you. Maybe enough time hasn't passed, or maybe I just haven't given myself the time. Either way it feels like just yesterday when we were sitting on that park bench.
So much has happened since that day. We both changed, the worst was brought out of both of us.
We were happy, crazy in love happy. We never fought. It was perfect. We had everything figured out.
But then everything changed. I can't express how sorry I am for everything that happened. I would do anything to change it, but it happened. Things went wrong and we grew apart. It was no longer perfect. We weren't happy.
When we first met, I never thought this was how things would turn out. We were so young and carefree. It was bad timing, we weren't ready for all that life was throwing our way.
The moment I realized I loved you was like a breath of fresh air. That rooftop will forever remind me of you. Stepping out of the car that night, the breeze hit me and suddenly it was all perfect. I knew that you were the one I could spend forever with. It hurts to know that we aren't that happy anymore.
Even though we still talk, things have changed. There's a cold feeling in your voice. It hurts knowing that you might never come back.
Your the one that got away for so many different reasons.
You were the one. Forever and always, remember? We knew that it wasn't going to be easy. Things were going to happen. You knew that and were willing to do whatever it took.
I don't blame you for not wanting to do anything to fix it, but I wish you did. I understand, but it doesn't change how I feel about you.
Losing what we had was one of the hardest thing I have ever had to endure. Mentally, I have blocked out what happened, in order to save myself from the pain. But the memories are still there, stronger than ever.
I lost more than my boyfriend, I lost my best friend. I told you everything and I still do when we talk. I miss you more that anything. We had something special, everyone saw it. You will always have a place in my heart, even if I'm long gone in yours.
As much as I hope you find happiness, I still hope it's with me. Maybe not now, but at some point. Who knows maybe a couple years down the line you'll have another "dream" and we'll grab some ice cream. Maybe one day it'll all come back to us.
Until then,
_____
P.S. I will always love you.
