After many long months of tears and tubs of ice cream, I was finally ready to move on. I was finally ready to move past the heartbreak and the the pain. I met you and there was an instant connection. There was a connection from the beginning and I could feel like myself with you. It is a feeling I haven't felt in a while and I can see that I'm falling for you and I can see the same thing coming from you. I can see you are starting to fall for me, but before you do, there are some things you need to know.

I've been hurt before and not just a little hurt. I was cheated on after having been promised the world. He promised me everything and that he would never hurt me, yet I sat for months wondering what in the world was wrong with me that someone would cheat on me. He was manipulative and made it seem like his wrong-doings were my fault. He made it seem like I was the one who failed the relationship and for a while I believed what he said. That is until I realized who he really was. But when I realized who he was, I promised myself that I would never let that happen to me again. I promised I would never be that in love with someone again where they had control to manipulate me. So when it comes to starting something new with someone else, my feelings may be reserved. I might not be able to tell you how I feel because I never want to feel the way I did.

I've never been good at expression and my past only makes it harder. But my past also has given me walls higher than you can imagine. I've always had walls that you could climb over, but now my walls are too high to climb. They will take a long time to break and it will take me to be willing to fall for you. But know that I am willing, it just might take me a while to get there. So if it feels like you have stronger feelings that I do, I am sorry. It is just my way to protect my heart that was crumpled by someone I handed it to.