Dear Ex,
I’m writing this to you as a letter of closure for me. I know you don’t care and that’s completely ok with me. I have struggled with this whole situation for two years. I have often wondered, was this my fault? After two years I am completely sure it was not my fault.
You were the one who chose to cheat on me. You lied to me you told me “she was nothing more than a friend” that day you were sitting in my car and she called. “I had nothing to worry about.” Man that was a lie, you said you wouldn’t date her because she was only 17 and with you being a teacher you told me that could jeopardize your job. You wasted almost two whole years of my life. You were my first real relationship. You were my first love. The first person I became intimate with. It just blows my mind how you didn’t seem to care. You made me feel like it was my fault. Looking back at it now I realize how you never treated me right. I felt like I always had to apologize to you for sharing my emotions. I had to apologize for calling you on the phone or Skype since we lived an hour apart. You would make me drive down to see you. You would promise me gas money that I would never receive. Along with all the wear and tare I put on my car in the process.
All of the little things you did just to hurt me. You broke up with me twice before cheating on me. You manipulated me both times making me think things would change. You one day pulled out a diamond ring in front of me. I was so excited to just find out you were going to tell me it was for the girl you would one day marry. You would constantly chose "Super Smash Brothers" over me since you were a competitive gamer. You broke up with me by lying to me you told me it was because the game was more important than I was. I however, found out through your best friend that it was because you cheated on me the previous weekend with a girl in NYC. The same girl that you were dating two days before you broke up with me.
The worst part is even with all the lies and hurt you put me through I became bitter and untrusting as well as unwilling to let anybody else in. I went through several relationships afterword looking for someone like you. But, I know now that’s exactly what I didn’t need. I never want to be with anyone like you. I’m glad to say I found someone just the opposite. Someone who truly cares. Someone who does for me what you never did. Someone who would make the drive. Someone who won't leave me. Someone that I’m not worried is going to leave me . Someone who showed me what the difference between love and lust is, and most importantly someone who didn’t put the ring away.
Sincerely,
The girl who’s no longer hurting
