I know it's tough, being so young and wanting to do and be so many things that you aren't capable of yet. But don't let that discourage you, you will make it there one day. You feel like you're the only person in the world who feels this way, and I can tell you for a fact, you aren't.

You're confused and longing for everything to just be perfect, the way you imagined it to be. You wish that just for a second you could be at peace with yourself. It's so difficult to be just figuring yourself out and to go through the things that you have. I know you think that the world will be better off without you and you want to feel loved.

You want to feel like you're cared about, that if something were to happen to you people would actually care. But you think that everyone around you is being fake, that not a single person would care about you being gone. That's not entirely true, you know your family will care, but outside of them, you feel like nobody cares at all.

I know you couldn't care less if you wake up tomorrow or not, but you should. You should try to think about the future, as much as you feel like you don't have one. Think about all of the things that you won't be here to see one day. Trust me when I say that your life is on its way to being something amazing.

You feel like you're dying right now, but you won't feel this way forever. And when you don't feel this way anymore, it will be so worth it. All of the hard times you're going through, the days in bed, barely able to get up, struggling to do even the simplest of things, let alone something as challenging as homework.

I can honestly say that you are at your worst right now, and that doesn't mean you're going to always feel great after you get through this, but you will have a better outlook on life. You will be able to enjoy yourself, have friends, talk to people, achieve your biggest goals, and smile a real smile again.

You won't hurt forever, but let me say that the struggle you're going through right now, is just preparing you for even greater highs in the future. You will be able to feel happiness so much stronger, and you will appreciate it more than you ever thought possible. You're a fighter, and you will find yourself fighting battles you never imagined, but that's okay. It will be okay and you will live to see the light in each day again.

Something that will help you to achieve your happiness, is finding yourself. Learning to be okay with who you are as a person is a huge step, you will see that. You will struggle with it, fall down, and it definitely won't come easy, but it will come.

You're going to have some relationships that mom and dad don't agree with. I know it's hard to feel like you're disappointing them, but you have to do what is best for you. Easier said than done, I know. But you will be so much happier if you do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Your happiness is most important in your life. Shocker, right?

Fight for yourself, don't listen to people's opinions. The only way to be happy is to love yourself and do the things that make you happy. You're never going to please everyone, so why not just try and please yourself instead?

Those relationships are going to be the best and worst times of your life. The happiness while you're doing good, is an amazing feeling. The loneliness fades, you feel like you're actually loveable for once in your life. You try new things, something that you're not good at otherwise. Adventures will happen, you will have some amazing memories to keep, you'll be able to say I went there, I saw that, or I did that.

Even though your relationships may not last, you will find a way to move on, and still keep the memories as something positive in your mind. In the end, the relationships you're going to have are going to teach you things, about yourself and about others. You will learn the type of person you want to be in a relationship with, versus the person that you would rather not interact with.

You can't expect everyone to love you for who you are, that's just never going to happen. It's going to happen even less, the more you are true to yourself. The more you decide to be open about the real you and what your past holds, the less likely the people you once thought wouldn't leave you, will stay. However, that doesn't mean anything, it's their loss. You don't need those people in your life if they don't truly want you to succeed.

I'm not saying these times are easy, but I will say that you're gonna make it through it. You're going to be okay. Life will knock you down, you're going to have bad days, but you will stand up again ten times stronger. You will find one day that life is worth living, even on the bad days. And you will find ways to help others who feel just like you do.

I love you, keep fighting and you will get where you want to be.