Dear Grandma,
My mind has been jogging through our memories together recently. As I look back, I experience feelings of regret, questions, and love. I regret not seeing you more or not always holding to my promises. I'm sorry I didn't visit as much as I promised you. As I grow older, I find that I have so many questions for you about life, love and faith.
Did you really drive halfway across the country? How did you know you loved your husband? What made you trust so deeply in your faith?
After your passing, I realized how much respect I held for you. You influenced my future indefinitely, even my career choice. I never realized you would be gone so soon. In my mind, I expected to see you at every milestone in my life. I imagined you at every formal, prom, graduation, and wedding. Your passing seemed impossible growing up. To not have you there in person was unthinkable, yet here I am. I know you are still with me. I know you saw me walk to get my high school diploma. You were there as I got ready for my first prom.
I realize that you loved me unconditionally. All that junk food laid out on the table waiting for us kids after school was just an expression of your love. All the times you let me make a mess of your house or go on trips to the store was for so much more than to spoil me. You taught me the gift of giving was worth more than anything I could receive in gold. You gave it all when all you had to give were quarters at the nursing home. For me, it was never about the gifts. I loved you from the start. through the ups and downs. We loved through all of the confusion, pain, sick nights, and long days. You were my best friend. We had each other through all the battles of your life. Now, you have my back through all the battles in my life. I know you are there to watch over me.
Finally, I'd like to thank you for being a silent leader in my life. You taught me so many lessons about care. As I helped tend to you during visits in the nursing home, it sparked an interest to pursue a degree in nursing. The time spent with you taught me more about the gentleness and patience needed in my career path than any school would.
The time I shared with you on this Earth was such a blessing. Thank you for making an impact on my life.
I love you and miss you more everyday,
Your granddaughter
