You know who you are,
How's it going? Remember me? We used to spend hours texting, even if it was at four in the morning. We used to do anything possible to make sure we could get that one extra day to hang out before you left to go back to school or to come home for the weekend. I remember late nights driving in your car with ridiculous music blaring, driving well over the speed limit and we hadn't even consumed a sip of alcohol. Sometimes I scroll through the pictures on my phone and am reminded of nights that happened so long ago, I can't remember them. But as soon as I see the pictures, a thousand memories come rushing back through my mind.
I smile, I laugh, sometimes I even cry, mostly because I miss you. I'm forced to look at these memories of the friendship we once had, that has now been placed on the back burner for a relationship. You found somebody and they stole your heart, and now you don't really need me to listen to your life struggles or help you pass the time.
I get mad sometimes, waiting to hear from you. I become frustrated at the empty promises. "We will hang out as soon as I come home!" Doubtful. Ever since you got in a relationship, I've missed our late night conversations. I miss being able to text or call you and know you'll make me feel better. Now, I text or call you and it's rare that you'll even pick up the phone. And when you do, it'll probably be a five minute conversation before you wrap it up and move on with your life. I can be pretty selfish.The truth is, yes, I miss all of those things. I wish we could be the best friends that we were before you went to college and fell in love and started what feels like a brand new life—one that doesn't include me.
But when I'm done being selfish and throwing my pity party, it's important for you to know that I'm still here. So if the person who stole your heart decides to abuse that privilege, I hope you come to me for a shoulder to cry on. Even if that person decides to commit to you and they become your's forever, I hope I'm one of the first people you think of when you make the guest list for your wedding.
I get it. I've been in love too, and I know how easy it is to drop everything and spend time with your significant other. I know how annoying it is to be in a conversation with your significant other and have somebody else interrupting it with their own problems. But I also know how much I missed my friends when I ditched them for somebody that just ended up leaving in the long run. I hope that doesn't happen to you. I guess I might be a little jealous because now I have to share. But somebody with as great of a personality and heart as yours deserves to be recognized by more than just me, the whole world should know.
I really do miss you, though.
Love,
Your best friend
