Hey, I know you remember me. I used to be your best friend.
So it is a little uncomfortable knowing you're reading this when I haven't spoken to you in months. Granted the fact we aren't talking is probably for the best. We have some great memories, you and I. Although I wish that last fight would have never happened, I am happier now and so are you, I think. I miss what friendship we had, but we are better off this way.
Girl, we were the same person. Both so crazy, adventurous, and stubborn. Quite honestly, that is probably what ended us. If I could text you right now saying that I still care about you and thought you would reply in a nice manner- I would.
Some of the things you said that day- hurt. I mean really hurt. Then again, we had a huge fight a few years back where you said more really hurtful things. I did too, I am not perfect. Thankfully, we got over that fight though, only to have another this past summer. Weird to think we were with each other every day, to not speaking at all. Right?
As much as we stood up for one another, there were constant rumors circling our friend group of you talking badly about me and vice versa. I do not know how true these are nor do I care. However, I do want you to know I never said a mean thing behind your back when we were BFFs, and I hope you can say the same.
We haven't spoken in what seems like forever, but please know that I still want the best for you and hope you find yourself. If you ever need something, I will be here. We aren't friends anymore but that does not mean I hate you. If I were to say one thing to you right now it would be, "I wish things were like they used to be. I know our friendship is over, but my endless love for you isn't. You were always there for me and if you ever need me again, I will try my hardest to help you."
Let me ask you something, what was our last and final fight even about though? Heck, what were half of our fights about? Because honestly, I couldn't tell you. They were also so dumb and I believe that is why we bounced back from them so quickly. We always had something important to tell one another.
Together, we were near unstoppable and thought nothing could truly end our impeccable bond.
Do not get me wrong though, I do think we had some sort of a friendship, even though it was a strained one at times. Late night drives and being able to cry on one another's shoulders is something I will always cherish. You were a friend of mine for years, and I truly believed we would be attending each other's weddings one day. I still do think of our memories hiking and spending late nights on the river or in the city, and I wish it was still that way. However, now you have made some new friends and I as well. You seem to be doing fantastic and I am too (in case you were wondering). I do not think I have ever seen you so happy and full of life in the six years I have known you. Please know that seeing you accomplish your goals makes me happy.
I am not saying I wish we could rebuild the bridge now, as that opportunity is long past, but I am saying I think of it. We are both better people now and that is all I ever wanted for the both of us. I want the best for you and I bet you want the same for me.
Not going to lie, you put it best when you tweeted that, "best friends can break your heart too."
Sincerely,
The Ex Best Friend
P.S. I hope you were able to come across this some how, as we both have one another blocked on social media.
