Love lost,
Not for intimate relationships,
but for myself.
That's what I would've said four years ago.
I struggle with understanding my strengths.
Everyone around me is doing something with their life.
I'm trying to build mine.
Not sure what to do so I write.
I write, study, make coffee, then I sleep
What else can I do?
It's not like a tv show.
You don't automatically get a job by simply having a nice conversation with a CEO then BAM.
You're in.
Trying so hard to find my niche.
Most people already found theirs.
I guess I'm still trying.
It's not a bad thing to try.
So I go outside, sigh, soak in the beauty of what the world has to offer,
Take a deep breath, then exhale.
Get your mind off of the pressure.
Listen to some tunes or listen to a podcast.
I've recently listened to more podcasts than I do music.
It's inspiring because some podcasts are about,
Writer's block or finding self-love.
I remember I lacked positivity,
self-esteem and confidence.
I didn't love myself at all.
I wished I was someone else.
Being in college made me realize,
I'm not so bad.
I can do something.
I can write, not sure If I do it well,
I can strategize and think creatively
Sometimes I can surprise myself.
There's more to myself than I show others.
My social anxiety has decreased, at least a little bit.
My confidence is better.
Guess letting go of negative people and environment really helps.
Know what else helps?
Youtube!
I always seek advice from there and it really helps my organization skills, self-confidence and there's so much to write about and explore.