Letting go, the phrase that can make people cringe or feel relief; in some cases, it could be both. Letting go is never easy, but holding on is more painful. You are so scared to let go of something that's been so familiar to you, something that once felt like safety. You think things will change, so you hold on for dear life. Then, one-day thoughts begin rushing through your mind, "Things aren't changing and I don't know how to fix it." "Am I just going to continue doing this to myself?" You are such a strong person, but this one thing is what makes you weak. Thinking about not having something around you that's like a daily routine makes your heart drop.
Think about this, are you happy? Not just happy, but extremely can't stop smiling happy. You once were like that, but things change and people change. You can't always expect things to stay the same, no matter how much you wish they would. You keep adding time, thinking if you point things out and speak your mind it will get better, and it does for awhile, then it goes back to being not what you hoped. It's a constant cycle. You keep the cycle, why? Because you're afraid to be alone? Or maybe your biggest fear will come true, they find someone new before you do. The fear of seeing the person you loved with all your heart infatuated with someone else scares you. What if they're better than you? Prettier, smarter, friendlier than you? What if they make the person that was once your world happier than you ever could?
When the worst case scenario happens, you have two choices. Learn to let go or let it kill you. I let it kill me once and I barely made it out alive; it's time to learn to let go. You can't base your happiness off another person because honey, it will ruin you. Go ahead, refresh their social media over and over again, it will never help. You are worth so much more than wasting your time checking up on them, just to be disappointed in the end.
It's going to hurt while you teach yourself the art of letting go, but in the end, it will be worth the tears and heartache. Surround yourself with positive people and keep yourself busy. Go about each day caring for yourself only, you will find yourself doing things because you want to, not because someone else wants you to. You deserve someone who accepts you the way you are and doesn't want to change anything about you. Remember, you are one of a kind and ANYONE would be lucky to have you. There's only one you, take care of yourself and learn to let go of the bad, and welcome the good.
