I'm only a girl. I can be insecure and jealous, and at times I might have a strange feeling that you don't like me anymore.

Please understand that I have had so many bad experiences with relationships. Multiple times there have been guys that stuck around for only a couple weeks, and then started to ignore me completely because they found someone else who they thought was prettier.

Understand that I am very insecure. Most of the time, even when you tell me I look beautiful or give me any other compliment, I'm still not convinced. I am my hardest critic, and believe me when I say I'm hard on myself. There are days I wake up, shower, spend an hour on my hair, makeup, and outfit, and I still don't want to look at myself in the mirror. But I do look, and I nitpick all of my flaws and make myself feel horrible.

Other days, I wake up feeling confident. I dress up and I go out, and you best believe I'll be taking pictures and uploading them to social media. How my days end up is like a lottery.

I love waking up to a "good morning" text. It reminds me that you're there, and that I'm the person you thought of when you woke up. I know a lot of people think guys shouldn't have to be the ones that always text first, and that statement is absolutely right, but it's a good feeling when I am texted first because it lets me know that they are thinking of me and want to talk to me.

If it's been a day or two and we've barely talked at all, I get really nervous. The feeling that you don't like me or don't wanna be with me starts to kick in, and at this point I might text or snapchat you something casual just to see if and what you will respond. Sometimes during a conversation, if you take too long to respond, I might be tempted to send you a second text about something totally different. I fear losing your attention.

I also fear that if I do text you first, or do send a second text before you respond, that I'll annoy you. This isn't my intention. All I need is reassurance that things are still good between us and that you haven't lost interest. We don't need to talk all day, and we don't need to hang out all of the time. I just need to see a little effort put into wanting to be with me, otherwise I will start jumping to conclusions.

Being in this situation sucks, especially when it starts to make you lose the faith of having a future with someone you're interested in. A lot of the time, the conclusions I start jumping to are far from the truth. It's not because he isn't thinking about me or doesn't want to talk to me that he hasn't texted me, but it's that he's been really busy. It might even be that he's in the same position as me and is just waiting on me to text him.

Regardless, if you have an interest in being with someone, make an effort to show them this. Don't text them excessively, but don't be afraid to text them first. As a really insecure girl, I'm having to learn this the hard way. I don't want to annoy him or do something to make him lose interest in me. The best case scenario is having a relationship where both partners are giving adequate attention to the other, and always reassuring them of their love, but unfortunately that just isn't always the case.