Drowning in the world for so long
My sins conniving with my past
To make sure I am drawn back in
Every time I seek a way out
Lost in the desire to be acknowledged
The immoral expectations of the world became my goals...
And with meeting those goals
I lost the feel of who I really was
The world belittled me and everything that concerns me
It used me, abused me, hurt me...
But who is to say I did not deserve it
I and everything about me became a priority
Misplaced in the need to be in control
I took matters into my own hands
I set traps that ended up hurting me even worse
But who is to say I did not see that coming
I was too hurt and blind to my selfishness that I forgot there was someone there all along
Stretching forth his hands to pull me out when I was drowning
He acknowledged the part of me the world made invisible
Reminding me constantly of who I really was, who I truly wanted to be
I let it slip my mind that someone was there for me patiently
Reminding me of my worth
Telling me what I truly deserved
Making me and all that concerns me a priority.
I cannot believe it took so long to see
Your endless supply of mercy and grace
It's sad that it took so long to say
Jesus you are Lord, you are life, you are goals, you are glory, you are honor, you are righteousness... help me lord to be for you, help me allow you to fulfil your purpose in my life.