I’ve had my days.

I am smart, but I’ve had my days. I am happy, but I’ve had my days. I am confident, but I’ve had my days. I’m in love, but I’ve had my days.

There are days we are sure of who we are but unsure how to maintain that image. We work hard to become this version of us that we hope others look up to or at the very least respect. Then there are days where we slip up, and fall flat on our faces. At my age of 23, I am all too familiar with the fall flat on your face and spill your skinny latte type days.

I am smart, but I have my days. I have failed tests that I have prepared for. But I have also failed tests that took the back burner to a Thirsty Thursday. I have gotten 100’s on quizzes I didn’t know I had, and sixty’s on ones I knew about. You can be smart and have your days.

I am happy, but I’ve had my days. I have woke up eager only to find myself completely off schedule with the smell of burnt toast reminding me I’m out of time. I have had days where the morning goes swimmingly but by lunch, I’ve had an anxiety attack so immense it brings my whole day to stop. I am happy, but I have my days.

I am confident, but I’ve had my days. I have days where I have to write in lipstick on my mirror that I am worth it just to remind myself I am. I have days where my ex-boyfriend's backhanded comments bounce from side to side in my head. I have days where I dare to wear that shirt with those shoes, and days where pajamas is all that will cut it. I am confident but i have my days.

I am in love, but I’ve had my days. I am in love with the most caring selfless man in the world but some days I cant understand why he is with me. I have days where I just want to be left alone although most woman would die for his attentiveness. I have days where date night isn’t so appealing, but I love him. I am in love, but I have my days.

Its not always about how you feel, just because we think it doesn’t make it true. I have bad days, but I have better ones ahead.